Chapter I: Front Matter

FIRES OF DRIFTWOOD

BY ISABEL ECCLESTONE MACKAY WITH DECORATIONS BY J.E.H. MACDONALD A.R.C.A.

First published by McClelland & Stewart, Limited, Toronto, 1922.

The thanks of the author are due to the editors of Ainslee's Magazine, The American Magazine, The Canadian Magazine, Canadian Home Journal, The Canadian Bookman, The Forum, The Globe, Harper's Magazine, The Independent, The Ladies' World, McClure's Magazine, Metropolitan Magazine, The Reader Magazine, Scribner's Magazine, Saturday Night, and The Youth's Companion for permission to publish this verse in its present form.

CONTENTS

FIRES OF DRIFTWOOD
WHEN AS A LAD
LAUREATE
OUT OF BABYLON
LAST SPRING
PRESENCE
IN AN AUTUMN GARDEN
ROSE DOLORES
A PILGRIM
SPRING WILL COME
COSMOS
THE SECRET
I WATCH SWIFT PICTURES
FEAR
RESURRECTION
THE LOST NAME
THE HAPPY TRAVELLER
THE DEAD BRIDE
THE CROCUS BED
THE VISION
THE MIRACLE
THE HOMESTEADER
WET WEATHER
THE SLEEPING BEAUTY
DOWN AT THE DOCKS
LAKE LOUISE
THE GATEKEEPER
THE BRIDGE BUILDER
THE PRAIRIE SCHOOL
CALGARY STATION
VALE
THE WAY TO WAIT
THE PASSER BY
FIRST LOVE
SAD ONE, MUST YOU WEEP
JOSEPH
A CHRISTMAS CHILD
SPRING IN NAZARETH
INHERITANCE
SONG OF THE SLEEPER
THE TYRANT
THE GIFTS
THE TOWN BETWEEN
ON THE MOUNTAIN
THE PROPHET
GIVE ME A DAY
LITTLE BROWN BIRD
THE WATCHER
POSSESSION
TO ARCADY
THE FIELDS OF EVEN
I LOVE MY LOVE
SPRING AWOKE TO-DAY
IN TOWN
SUMMER'S PASSING
THE DOOM OF YS
TIME'S GARDEN
THE COMING OF LOVE
PREMONITION
THE CHILD
INTRUSION
THE SEA'S WITHHOLDING
LOVE UNKIND
CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN
I WHISPERED TO THE BOB-O-LINK
YOU
THE MOTHER
THE VASSAL
THE TROUBADOUR
INDIAN SUMMER
THE UNCHANGED
INDIFFERENCE
LAST THINGS
CALLOUS CUPID
THE MEETING
THE PIPER
WANDERLUST
GOLD
THE MATERIALIST
TIR NAN OG
THE LITTLE MAN IN GREEN
THE ENCHANTRESS
THE BANSHEE
THE WITCH
FAIRY SINGING
KILLED IN ACTION
SPRING CAME IN
FROM THE TRENCHES
THE REASONS
TO-DAY
MEMORY
DREAM
PERHAPS
GLAMOUR
FRIENDSHIP
THE RETURNED MAN
EPITAPH
FOR ONE WHO WENT IN SPRING

Fires of Driftwood

ON what long tides Do you drift to my fire, You waifs of strange waters? From what far seas, What murmurous sands, What desolate beaches-- Flotsam of those glories that were ships!

I gather you, Bitter with salt, Sun-bleached, rock-scarred, moon-harried, Fuel for my fire.

You are Pride's end. Through all to-morrows you are yesterday. You are waste, You are ruin, For where is that which once you were?

I gather you. See! I set free the fire within you-- You awake in thin flame! Tremulous, mistlike, your soul aspires, Blue, beautiful, Up and up to the clouds which are its kindred! What is left is nothing-- Ashes blown along the shore!

When as a Lad

WHEN, as a lad, at break of day
I watched the fishers sail away,
My thoughts, like flocking birds, would follow
Across the curving sky's blue hollow,
And on and on--
Into the very heart of dawn!

For long I searched the world--ah, me!
I searched the sky, I searched the sea,
With much of useless grief and rueing
Those winged thoughts of mine pursuing--
So dear were they,
So lovely and so far away!

I seek them still and always must
Until my laggard heart is dust
And I am free to follow, follow,
Across the curving sky's blue hollow,
Those thoughts too fleet
For any save the soul's swift feet!

Laureate

DEATH met a little child who cried For a bright star which earth denied, And Death, so sympathetic, kissed it, Saying: "With me All bright things be!"-- And only the child's mother missed it.

Death met a maiden on the brae, Her eyes held dreams life would betray, And gallant Death was greatly taken-- "Leave," whispered he, "Your dream with me And I will see you never waken."

Death met an old man in a lane; So gnarled was he and full of pain That kindly Death was struck with pity-- "Come you with me, Old man," said he, "I'll set you down in a fair city."

So, kingly Death along the way Scatters rare gifts and asks no pay-- Yet who to Death will write a sonnet? If any dare, Let him take care No foolish tear be spilled upon it!

Out of Babylon

THEIR looks for me are bitter,
And bitter is their word--
I may not glance behind unseen,
I may not sigh unheard.

So fare we forth from Babylon,
Along the road of stone;
And no one looks to Babylon
Save I--save I alone!

My mother's eyes are glory-filled
(Save when they fall on me)
The shining of my father's face
I tremble when I see,

For they were slaves in Babylon,
And now they're walking free--
They leave their chains in Babylon,
I bear my chains with me!

At night a sound of singing
The vast encampment fills;
"Jerusalem! Jerusalem!"
It sweeps the nearing hills--

But no one sings of Babylon
(Their home of yesterday)
And no one prays for Babylon,
And I--I dare not pray!

Last night the Prophet saw me;
And, while he held me there,
The holy fire within his eyes
Burned all my secret bare.

"What! Sigh you so for Babylon?"
(I turned away my face)
"Here's one who turns to Babylon,
Heart traitor to her race!"

I follow and I follow!
My heart upon the rack;
I follow to Jerusalem--
The long road stretches back

To Babylon, to Babylon!
And every step I take
Bears farther off from Babylon
A heart that cannot break.

Last Spring

THIS morning at the door I heard the Spring. Quickly I set it wide And, welcoming, "Come in, sweet Spring," I cried, "The winter ash, long dried, Waits but your breath to rise On phantom wing."

A brown leaf shivered by, A soulless thing-- My heart in quick dismay Forgot to sing-- Twisted and grim it lay, Kin to the ghost-ash gray, Dead, dead--strange herald this Of jocund Spring!

I spurned it from the door. I longed that Spring Should come with song and glow And rush of wing, Not this, not this!--But O Dead leaf, a year ago You were the dear first-born Of Hope and Spring!

Presence

BY a sense of Presence, keenly dear, I, who thought her distant, Knew her near.

By an echo that most sweetly woke, I, long keyed to silence, Knew she spoke.

By her nearness and the word she said, I, who thought her living, Knew her dead.

In an Autumn Garden

TO-NIGHT the air discloses
Souls of a million roses,
And ghosts of hyacinths that died too soon;
From Pan's safe-hidden altar
Dim wraiths of incense falter
In waving spiral, making sweet the moon!

Aroused from fragrant covers,
The vows of vanished lovers
Take voice in whisperings that rise and pass;
Where the crisped leaves are lying
A tremulous, low sighing
Breathes like a startled spirit o'er the grass.

Ah, Love! in some far garden,
In Arcady or Arden,
We two were lovers! Hush--remember not
The years in which I've missed you--
'Twas yesterday I kissed you
Beneath this haunted moon! Have you forgot?

Rose Dolores

THE moan of Rose Dolores, she made her plaint to me, "My hair is lifted by the wind that sweeps in from the sea; I taste its salt upon my lips--O jailer, set me free!"

"Content thee, Rose Dolores; content thee, child of care! There's satin shoon upon thy feet and emeralds in thy hair, And one there is who hungers for thy step upon the stair."

The moan of Rose Dolores, "O jailer, set me free! These satin shoon and green-lit gems are terrible to me; I hear a murmur on the wind, the murmur of the sea!"

"Bethink thee, Rose Dolores, bethink thee, ere too late! Thou wert a fisher's child, alack, born to a fisher's fate; Would'st lay thy beauty 'neath the yoke--would'st be a fisher's mate?"

The moan of Rose Dolores "Kind jailer, let me go! There's one who is a fisher--ah! my heart beats cold and slow Lest he should doubt I love him--I! who love not heaven so!"

"Alas, sweet Rose Dolores, why beat against the bars? Thy fisher lover drifteth where the sea is full of stars; Why weep for one who weeps no more?--since grief thy beauty mars!"

The moan of Rose Dolores (she prayed me patiently) "O jailer, now I know who called from out the calling sea, I know whose kiss was in the wind--O jailer, set me free!"

A Pilgrim

ACROSS the trodden continent of years To shrines of long ago, My heart, a hooded pilgrim, turns with tears-- For could I know That in the temple of thy constancy There still may burn a taper lit for me, 'Twould be a star in starless heaven, to show That Heaven could be.

Bent with the weight of all that I desired And all that I forswore, My heart roams, mendicant, forlorn and tired, From door to door, Begging of every stern-faced memory An alms of pity--just to come to thee, No more thy knight, thy champion no more-- Only thy devotee!

Spring will Come

SPRING will come to help me: she'll be back again,
Back with the soft sun, the sun I knew before.
She will wear her green gown, the emerald gown she wore
When the white-faced windflowers blew along the lane.

Spring will come to help me: When her waking sigh
Drifts across my sore heart all the pain will go.
How shall hearts be aching when larks are flying low,
Low across the fields of camas bluer than the sky?

I've a tryst with Spring here--maybe they'll be few
Now the world grows older--and shall I delay
Just because a Winter has stolen joy away?
What cares Spring for old joys, all her joys are new.

Maybe there'll be singing in my sorrow yet--
I have heard of such things--but, if there be not,
Still there'll be the green pool in the pasture lot,
All a-trail with willow fingers, delicate and wet.

Winter is a passing thing and Spring is always gay;
If she, too, be passing she does not weep to know it.
Time she takes to quicken seed but never time to grow it--
Naught she cares for harvest that lies so far away.

Cosmos

THE tiny thing of painted gauze that flutters in the sun And sinks upon the breast of night with all its living done;

The unconsidered seed that from the garden blows away, Blooming its little time to bloom in one short summer day;

The leaf the idle wind shakes down in autumn from the tree, The grasshopper who for an hour makes gayest minstrelsy--

These--and this restless soul of mine--are one with flaming spheres And cold, dead moons whose ghostly fires haunt unremembered years.

The Secret

IF I should tell you what I know
Of where the first primroses grow,
Betray the secrets of the lily,
Bring crocus-gold and daffodilly,
Would you tell me if charm there be
To win a maiden, willy-nilly?

I lie upon the fragrant heath,
Kin to the beating heart beneath;
The nesting plover I discover
Nor stir the scented screen above her,
Yet am I blind--I cannot find
What turns a maiden to her lover!

Through all the mysteries of May,
Initiate, I take my way--
Sure as the blithest lark or linnet
To touch the pulsing soul within it--
Yet with no art to reach Her heart,
Nor skill to teach me how to win it!

I Watch Swift Pictures

I WATCH swift pictures flash and fade
On the closed curtains of my eyes,--
A bit of river green as jade
Under green skies;

A single bird that soars and dips
Remote; a young and secret moon
Stealing to kiss some flower's lips
Too shy for noon;

A pointing tree; a lifted hill,
Sun-misted with a golden ring,--
Were these once mine? And am I still
Remembering?

A path that wanders wistfully
With no beginning there nor here,
Nor special grace that it should be
So sharply dear,

Unless,--what if when every day
Is yesterday, with naught to borrow,
I may slip down this wistful way
Into to-morrow?

Fear

I HEARD a sound of crying in the lane,
A passionless, low crying,
And I said, "It is the tears of the brown rain
On the leaves within the lane!"

I heard a sudden sighing at the door,
A soft, persuasive sighing,
And I said, "The summer breeze has sighed before,
Gustily, outside the door!"

Yet from the place I fled, nor came again,
With my heart beating, beating!
For I knew 'twas not the breeze nor the brown rain
At the door and in the lane!

Resurrection