Chapter LXXXVIII: Part III: I.—old Jolyon Walks (2)

“I never know!” said Soames slowly; “you don't confide in me.”

“I would, if you'd help me, dear.”

“Perhaps I shall.”

Fleur clasped her hands. “Oh! darling—when one wants a thing
fearfully, one doesn't think of other people. Don't be angry with
me.”

Soames put out his hand, as if pushing away an aspersion.

“I'm cogitating,” he said. What on earth had made him use a word
like that! “Has young Mont been bothering you again?”

Fleur smiled. “Oh! Michael! He's always bothering; but he's such
a good sort—I don't mind him.”

“Well,” said Soames, “I'm tired; I shall go and have a nap before
dinner.”

He went up to his picture-gallery, lay down on the couch there,
and closed his eyes. A terrible responsibility this girl of
his—whose mother was—ah! what was she? A terrible responsibility!
Help her—how could he help her? He could not alter the fact that
he was her father. Or that Irene—! What was it young Mont had
said—some nonsense about the possessive instinct—shutters up—To
let? Silly!

The sultry air, charged with a scent of meadow-sweet, of river
and roses, closed on his senses, drowsing them.

V.—THE FIXED IDEA

“The fixed idea,” which has outrun more constables than any other
form of human disorder, has never more speed and stamina than
when it takes the avid guise of love. To hedges and ditches, and
doors, to humans without ideas fixed or otherwise, to
perambulators and the contents sucking their fixed ideas, even to
the other sufferers from this fast malady—the fixed idea of love
pays no attention. It runs with eyes turned inward to its own
light, oblivious of all other stars. Those with the fixed ideas
that human happiness depends on their art, on vivisecting dogs,
on hating foreigners, on paying supertax, on remaining Ministers,
on making wheels go round, on preventing their neighbours from
being divorced, on conscientious objection, Greek roots, Church
dogma, paradox and superiority to everybody else, with other
forms of ego-mania—all are unstable compared with him or her
whose fixed idea is the possession of some her or him. And though
Fleur, those chilly summer days, pursued the scattered life of a
little Forsyte whose frocks are paid for, and whose business is
pleasure, she was—as Winifred would have said in the latest
fashion of speech—“honest to God” indifferent to it all. She
wished and wished for the moon, which sailed in cold skies above
the river or the Green Park when she went to Town. She even kept
Jon's letters, covered with pink silk, on her heart, than which
in days when corsets were so low, sentiment so despised, and
chests so out of fashion, there could, perhaps, have been no
greater proof of the fixity of her idea.

After hearing of his father's death, she wrote to Jon, and
received his answer three days later on her return from a river
picnic. It was his first letter since their meeting at June's.
She opened it with misgiving, and read it with dismay.

“Since I saw you I've heard everything about the past. I won't
tell it you—I think you knew when we met at June's. She says you
did. If you did, Fleur, you ought to have told me. I expect you
only heard your father's side of it. I have heard my mother's.
It's dreadful. Now that she's so sad I can't do anything to hurt
her more. Of course, I long for you all day, but I don't believe
now that we shall ever come together—there's something too strong
pulling us apart.”

So! Her deception had found her out. But Jon—she felt—had
forgiven that. It was what he said of his mother which caused the
guttering in her heart and the weak sensation in her legs.

Her first impulse was to reply—her second, not to reply. These
impulses were constantly renewed in the days which followed,
while desperation grew within her. She was not her father's child
for nothing. The tenacity which had at once made and undone
Soames was her backbone, too, frilled and embroidered by French
grace and quickness. Instinctively she conjugated the verb “to
have” always with the pronoun “I.” She concealed, however, all
signs of her growing desperation, and pursued such river
pleasures as the winds and rain of a disagreeable July permitted,
as if she had no care in the world; nor did any “sucking baronet”
ever neglect the business of a publisher more consistently than
her attendant spirit, Michael Mont.

To Soames she was a puzzle. He was almost deceived by this
careless gaiety. Almost—because he did not fail to mark her eyes
often fixed on nothing, and the film of light shining from her
bedroom window late at night. What was she thinking and brooding
over into small hours when she ought to have been asleep? But he
dared not ask what was in her mind; and, since that one little
talk in the billiard-room, she said nothing to him.

In this taciturn condition of affairs it chanced that Winifred
invited them to lunch and to go afterward to “a most amusing
little play, 'The Beggar's Opera'” and would they bring a man to
make four? Soames, whose attitude toward theatres was to go to
nothing, accepted, because Fleur's attitude was to go to
everything. They motored up, taking Michael Mont, who, being in
his seventh heaven, was found by Winifred “very amusing.” “The
Beggar's Opera” puzzled Soames. The people were very unpleasant,
the whole thing very cynical. Winifred was “intrigued”—by the
dresses. The music, too, did not displease her. At the Opera, the
night before, she had arrived too early for the Russian Ballet,
and found the stage occupied by singers, for a whole hour pale or
apoplectic from terror lest by some dreadful inadvertence they
might drop into a tune. Michael Mont was enraptured with the
whole thing. And all three wondered what Fleur was thinking of
it. But Fleur was not thinking of it. Her fixed idea stood on the
stage and sang with Polly Peachum, mimed with Filch, danced with
Jenny Diver, postured with Lucy Lockit, kissed, trolled, and
cuddled with Macheath. Her lips might smile, her hands applaud,
but the comic old masterpiece made no more impression on her than
if it had been pathetic, like a modern “Revue.” When they
embarked in the car to return, she ached because Jon was not
sitting next her instead of Michael Mont. When, at some jolt, the
young man's arm touched hers as if by accident, she only thought:
'If that were Jon's arm!' When his cheerful voice, tempered by
her proximity, murmured above the sound of the car's progress,
she smiled and answered, thinking: 'If that were Jon's voice!'
and when once he said, “Fleur, you look a perfect angel in that
dress!” she answered, “Oh, do you like it?” thinking, 'If only
Jon could see it!'

During this drive she took a resolution. She would go to Robin
Hill and see him—alone; she would take the car, without word
beforehand to him or to her father. It was nine days since his
letter, and she could wait no longer. On Monday she would go! The
decision made her well disposed toward young Mont. With something
to look forward to she could afford to tolerate and respond. He
might stay to dinner; propose to her as usual; dance with her,
press her hand, sigh—do what he liked. He was only a nuisance
when he interfered with her fixed idea. She was even sorry for
him so far as it was possible to be sorry for anybody but herself
just now. At dinner he seemed to talk more wildly than usual
about what he called “the death of the close borough”—she paid
little attention, but her father seemed paying a good deal, with
the smile on his face which meant opposition, if not anger.

“The younger generation doesn't think as you do, sir; does it,
Fleur?”

Fleur shrugged her shoulders—the younger generation was just Jon,
and she did not know what he was thinking.

“Young people will think as I do when they're my age, Mr. Mont.
Human nature doesn't change.”

“I admit that, sir; but the forms of thought change with the
times. The pursuit of self-interest is a form of thought that's
going out.”

“Indeed! To mind one's own business is not a form of thought, Mr.
Mont, it's an instinct.”

Yes, when Jon was the business!

“But what is one's business, sir? That's the point. Everybody's
business is going to be one's business. Isn't it, Fleur?”

Fleur only smiled.

“If not,” added young Mont, “there'll be blood.”

“People have talked like that from time immemorial”

“But you'll admit, sir, that the sense of property is dying out?”

“I should say increasing among those who have none.”

“Well, look at me! I'm heir to an entailed estate. I don't want
the thing; I'd cut the entail to-morrow.”

“You're not married, and you don't know what you're talking
about.”

Fleur saw the young man's eyes turn rather piteously upon her.

“Do you really mean that marriage—?” he began.

“Society is built on marriage,” came from between her father's
close lips; “marriage and its consequences. Do you want to do
away with it?”

Young Mont made a distracted gesture. Silence brooded over the
dinner table, covered with spoons bearing the Forsyte crest—a
pheasant proper—under the electric light in an alabaster globe.
And outside, the river evening darkened, charged with heavy
moisture and sweet scents.

'Monday,' thought Fleur; 'Monday!'

VI.—DESPERATE

The weeks which followed the death of his father were sad and
empty to the only Jolyon Forsyte left. The necessary forms and
ceremonies—the reading of the Will, valuation of the estate,
distribution of the legacies—were enacted over the head, as it
were, of one not yet of age. Jolyon was cremated. By his special
wish no one attended that ceremony, or wore black for him. The
succession of his property, controlled to some extent by old
Jolyon's Will, left his widow in possession of Robin Hill, with
two thousand five hundred pounds a year for life. Apart from this
the two Wills worked together in some complicated way to insure
that each of Jolyon's three children should have an equal share
in their grandfather's and father's property in the future as in
the present, save only that Jon, by virtue of his sex, would have
control of his capital when he was twenty-one, while June and
Holly would only have the spirit of theirs, in order that their
children might have the body after them. If they had no children,
it would all come to Jon if he outlived them; and since June was
fifty, and Holly nearly forty, it was considered in Lincoln's Inn
Fields that but for the cruelty of income tax, young Jon would be
as warm a man as his grandfather when he died. All this was
nothing to Jon, and little enough to his mother. It was June who
did everything needful for one who had left his affairs in
perfect order. When she had gone, and those two were alone again
in the great house, alone with death drawing them together, and
love driving them apart, Jon passed very painful days secretly
disgusted and disappointed with himself. His mother would look at
him with such a patient sadness which yet had in it an
instinctive pride, as if she were reserving her defence. If she
smiled he was angry that his answering smile should be so
grudging and unnatural. He did not judge or condemn her; that was
all too remote—indeed, the idea of doing so had never come to
him. No! he was grudging and unnatural because he couldn't have
what he wanted because of her. There was one alleviation—much to
do in connection with his father's career, which could not be
safely entrusted to June, though she had offered to undertake it.
Both Jon and his mother had felt that if she took his portfolios,
unexhibited drawings and unfinished matter, away with her, the
work would encounter such icy blasts from Paul Post and other
frequenters of her studio, that it would soon be frozen out even
of her warm heart. On its old-fashioned plane and of its kind the
work was good, and they could not bear the thought of its
subjection to ridicule. A one-man exhibition of his work was the
least testimony they could pay to one they had loved; and on
preparation for this they spent many hours together. Jon came to
have a curiously increased respect for his father. The quiet
tenacity with which he had converted a mediocre talent into
something really individual was disclosed by these researches.
There was a great mass of work with a rare continuity of growth
in depth and reach of vision. Nothing certainly went very deep,
or reached very high—but such as the work was, it was thorough,
conscientious, and complete. And, remembering his father's utter
absence of “side” or self-assertion, the chaffing humility with
which he had always spoken of his own efforts, ever calling
himself “an amateur,” Jon could not help feeling that he had
never really known his father. To take himself seriously, yet
never that he did so, seemed to have been his ruling principle.
There was something in this which appealed to the boy, and made
him heartily endorse his mother's comment: “He had true
refinement; he couldn't help thinking of others, whatever he did.
And when he took a resolution which went counter, he did it with
the minimum of defiance—not like the Age, is it? Twice in his
life he had to go against everything; and yet it never made him
bitter.” Jon saw tears running down her face, which she at once
turned away from him. She was so quiet about her loss that
sometimes he had thought she didn't feel it much. Now, as he
looked at her, he felt how far he fell short of the reserve power
and dignity in both his father and his mother. And, stealing up
to her, he put his arm round her waist. She kissed him swiftly,
but with a sort of passion, and went out of the room.

The studio, where they had been sorting and labelling, had once
been Holly's schoolroom, devoted to her silkworms, dried
lavender, music, and other forms of instruction. Now, at the end
of July, despite its northern and eastern aspects, a warm and
slumberous air came in between the long-faded lilac linen
curtains. To redeem a little the departed glory, as of a field
that is golden and gone, clinging to a room which its master has
left, Irene had placed on the paint-stained table a bowl of red
roses. This, and Jolyon's favourite cat, who still clung to the
deserted habitat, were the pleasant spots in that dishevelled,
sad workroom. Jon, at the north window, sniffing air mysteriously
scented with warm strawberries, heard a car drive up. The lawyers
again about some nonsense! Why did that scent so make one ache?
And where did it come from—there were no strawberry beds on this
side of the house. Instinctively he took a crumpled sheet of
paper from his pocket, and wrote down some broken words. A warmth
began spreading in his chest; he rubbed the palms of his hands
together. Presently he had jotted this:

“If I could make a little song A little song to soothe my heart!
I'd make it all of little things The plash of water, rub of
wings, The puffing-off of dandies crown, The hiss of raindrop
spilling down, The purr of cat, the trill of bird, And ev'ry
whispering I've heard From willy wind in leaves and grass, And
all the distant drones that pass. A song as tender and as light
As flower, or butterfly in flight; And when I saw it opening, I'd
let it fly and sing!”

He was still muttering it over to himself at the window, when he
heard his name called, and, turning round, saw Fleur. At that
amazing apparition, he made at first no movement and no sound,
while her clear vivid glance ravished his heart. Then he went
forward to the table, saying, “How nice of you to come!” and saw
her flinch as if he had thrown something at her.

“I asked for you,” she said, “and they showed me up here. But I
can go away again.”

Jon clutched the paint-stained table. Her face and figure in its
frilly frock photographed itself with such startling vividness
upon his eyes, that if she had sunk through the floor he must
still have seen her.

“I know I told you a lie, Jon. But I told it out of love.”

“Yes, oh! yes! That's nothing!”

“I didn't answer your letter. What was the use—there wasn't
anything to answer. I wanted to see you instead.” She held out
both her hands, and Jon grasped them across the table. He tried
to say something, but all his attention was given to trying not
to hurt her hands. His own felt so hard and hers so soft. She
said almost defiantly:

“That old story—was it so very dreadful?”

“Yes.” In his voice, too, there was a note of defiance.

She dragged her hands away. “I didn't think in these days boys
were tied to their mothers' apron-strings.”

Jon's chin went up as if he had been struck.

“Oh! I didn't mean it, Jon. What a horrible thing to say!”
Swiftly she came close to him. “Jon, dear; I didn't mean it.”

“All right.”

She had put her two hands on his shoulder, and her forehead down
on them; the brim of her hat touched his neck, and he felt it
quivering. But, in a sort of paralysis, he made no response. She
let go of his shoulder and drew away.

“Well, I'll go, if you don't want me. But I never thought you'd
have given me up.”

“I haven't,” cried Jon, coming suddenly to life. “I can't. I'll
try again.”

Her eyes gleamed, she swayed toward him. “Jon—I love you! Don't
give me up! If you do, I don't know what—I feel so desperate.
What does it matter—all that past—compared with this?”

She clung to him. He kissed her eyes, her cheeks, her lips. But
while he kissed her he saw, the sheets of that letter fallen down
on the floor of his bedroom—his father's white dead face—his
mother kneeling before it. Fleur's whispered, “Make her! Promise!
Oh! Jon, try!” seemed childish in his ear. He felt curiously old.

“I promise!” he muttered. “Only, you don't understand.”

“She wants to spoil our lives, just because—”

“Yes, of what?”

Again that challenge in his voice, and she did not answer. Her
arms tightened round him, and he returned her kisses; but even
while he yielded, the poison worked in him, the poison of the
letter. Fleur did not know, she did not understand—she misjudged
his mother; she came from the enemy's camp! So lovely, and he
loved her so—yet, even in her embrace, he could not help the
memory of Holly's words: “I think she has a 'having' nature,” and
his mother's “My darling boy, don't think of me—think of
yourself!”

When she was gone like a passionate dream, leaving her image on
his eyes, her kisses on his lips, such an ache in his heart, Jon
leaned in the window, listening to the car bearing her away.
Still the scent as of warm strawberries, still the little summer
sounds that should make his song; still all the promise of youth
and happiness in sighing, floating, fluttering July—and his heart
torn; yearning strong in him; hope high in him yet with its eyes
cast down, as if ashamed. The miserable task before him! If Fleur
was desperate, so was he—watching the poplars swaying, the white
clouds passing, the sunlight on the grass.

He waited till evening, till after their almost silent dinner,
till his mother had played to him and still he waited, feeling
that she knew what he was waiting to say. She kissed him and went
up-stairs, and still he lingered, watching the moonlight and the
moths, and that unreality of colouring which steals along and
stains a summer night. And he would have given anything to be
back again in the past—barely three months back; or away forward,
years, in the future. The present with this dark cruelty of a
decision, one way or the other, seemed impossible. He realised
now so much more keenly what his mother felt than he had at
first; as if the story in that letter had been a poisonous germ
producing a kind of fever of partisanship, so that he really felt
there were two camps, his mother's and his—Fleur's and her
father's. It might be a dead thing, that old tragic ownership and
enmity, but dead things were poisonous till time had cleaned them
away. Even his love felt tainted, less illusioned, more of the
earth, and with a treacherous lurking doubt lest Fleur, like her
father, might want to own; not articulate, just a stealing haunt,
horribly unworthy, which crept in and about the ardour of his
memories, touched with its tarnishing breath the vividness and
grace of that charmed face and figure—a doubt, not real enough to
convince him of its presence, just real enough to deflower a
perfect faith. And perfect faith, to Jon, not yet twenty, was
essential. He still had Youth's eagerness to give with both
hands, to take with neither—to give lovingly to one who had his
own impulsive generosity. Surely she had! He got up from the
window-seat and roamed in the big grey ghostly room, whose walls
were hung with silvered canvas. This house his father said in
that death-bed letter—had been built for his mother to live
in—with Fleur's father! He put out his hand in the half-dark, as
if to grasp the shadowy hand of the dead. He clenched, trying to
feel the thin vanished fingers of his father; to squeeze them,
and reassure him that he—he was on his father's side. Tears,
prisoned within him, made his eyes feel dry and hot. He went back
to the window. It was warmer, not so eerie, more comforting
outside, where the moon hung golden, three days off full; the
freedom of the night was comforting. If only Fleur and he had met
on some desert island without a past—and Nature for their house!
Jon had still his high regard for desert islands, where
breadfruit grew, and the water was blue above the coral. The
night was deep, was free—there was enticement in it; a lure, a
promise, a refuge from entanglement, and love! Milksop tied to
his mother's...! His cheeks burned. He shut the window, drew
curtains over it, switched off the lighted sconce, and went
up-stairs.

The door of his room was open, the light turned up; his mother,
still in her evening gown, was standing at the window. She turned
and said:

“Sit down, Jon; let's talk.” She sat down on the window-seat, Jon
on his bed. She had her profile turned to him, and the beauty and
grace of her figure, the delicate line of the brow, the nose, the
neck, the strange and as it were remote refinement of her, moved
him. His mother never belonged to her surroundings. She came into
them from somewhere—as it were! What was she going to say to him,
who had in his heart such things to say to her?

“I know Fleur came to-day. I'm not surprised.” It was as though
she had added: “She is her father's daughter!” And Jon's heart
hardened. Irene went on quietly:

“I have Father's letter. I picked it up that night and kept it.
Would you like it back, dear?”

Jon shook his head.

“I had read it, of course, before he gave it to you. It didn't
quite do justice to my criminality.”

“Mother!” burst from Jon's lips.

“He put it very sweetly, but I know that in marrying Fleur's
father without love I did a dreadful thing. An unhappy marriage,
Jon, can play such havoc with other lives besides one's own. You
are fearfully young, my darling, and fearfully loving. Do you
think you can possibly be happy with this girl?”

Staring at her dark eyes, darker now from pain, Jon answered

“Yes; oh! yes—if you could be.”

Irene smiled.

“Admiration of beauty and longing for possession are not love. If
yours were another case like mine, Jon—where the deepest things
are stifled; the flesh joined, and the spirit at war!”

“Why should it, Mother? You think she must be like her father,
but she's not. I've seen him.”

Again the smile came on Irene's lips, and in Jon something
wavered; there was such irony and experience in that smile.

“You are a giver, Jon; she is a taker.”

That unworthy doubt, that haunting uncertainty again! He said
with vehemence:

“She isn't—she isn't. It's only because I can't bear to make you
unhappy, Mother, now that Father—” He thrust his fists against
his forehead.

Irene got up.

“I told you that night, dear, not to mind me. I meant it. Think
of yourself and your own happiness! I can stand what's left—I've
brought it on myself.”

Again the word “Mother!” burst from Jon's lips.

She came over to him and put her hands over his.

“Do you feel your head, darling?”

Jon shook it. What he felt was in his chest—a sort of tearing
asunder of the tissue there, by the two loves.

“I shall always love you the same, Jon, whatever you do. You
won't lose anything.” She smoothed his hair gently, and walked
away.

He heard the door shut; and, rolling over on the bed, lay,
stifling his breath, with an awful held-up feeling within him.

VII.—EMBASSY

Enquiring for her at tea time Soames learned that Fleur had been
out in the car since two. Three hours! Where had she gone? Up to
London without a word to him? He had never become quite
reconciled with cars. He had embraced them in principle—like the
born empiricist, or Forsyte, that he was—adopting each symptom of
progress as it came along with: “Well, we couldn't do without
them now.” But in fact he found them tearing, great, smelly
things. Obliged by Annette to have one—a Rollhard with pearl-grey
cushions, electric light, little mirrors, trays for the ashes of
cigarettes, flower vases—all smelling of petrol and
stephanotis—he regarded it much as he used to regard his
brother-in-law, Montague Dartie. The thing typified all that was
fast, insecure, and subcutaneously oily in modern life. As modern
life became faster, looser, younger, Soames was becoming older,
slower, tighter, more and more in thought and language like his
father James before him. He was almost aware of it himself. Pace
and progress pleased him less and less; there was an ostentation,
too, about a car which he considered provocative in the
prevailing mood of Labour. On one occasion that fellow Sims had
driven over the only vested interest of a working man. Soames had
not forgotten the behaviour of its master, when not many people
would have stopped to put up with it. He had been sorry for the
dog, and quite prepared to take its part against the car, if that
ruffian hadn't been so outrageous. With four hours fast becoming
five, and still no Fleur, all the old car-wise feelings he had
experienced in person and by proxy balled within him, and sinking
sensations troubled the pit of his stomach. At seven he
telephoned to Winifred by trunk call. No! Fleur had not been to
Green Street. Then where was she? Visions of his beloved daughter
rolled up in her pretty frills, all blood and dust-stained, in
some hideous catastrophe, began to haunt him. He went to her room
and spied among her things. She had taken nothing—no
dressing-case, no Jewellery. And this, a relief in one sense,
increased his fears of an accident. Terrible to be helpless when
his loved one was missing, especially when he couldn't bear fuss
or publicity of any kind! What should he do if she were not back
by nightfall?

At a quarter to eight he heard the car. A great weight lifted
from off his heart; he hurried down. She was getting out—pale and
tired-looking, but nothing wrong. He met her in the hall.

“You've frightened me. Where have you been?”

“To Robin Hill. I'm sorry, dear. I had to go; I'll tell you
afterward.” And, with a flying kiss, she ran up-stairs.

Soames waited in the drawing-room. To Robin Hill! What did that
portend?

It was not a subject they could discuss at dinner—consecrated to
the susceptibilities of the butler. The agony of nerves Soames
had been through, the relief he felt at her safety, softened his
power to condemn what she had done, or resist what she was going
to do; he waited in a relaxed stupor for her revelation. Life was
a queer business. There he was at sixty-five and no more in
command of things than if he had not spent forty years in
building up security-always something one couldn't get on terms
with! In the pocket of his dinner-jacket was a letter from
Annette. She was coming back in a fortnight. He knew nothing of
what she had been doing out there. And he was glad that he did
not. Her absence had been a relief. Out of sight was out of mind!
And now she was coming back. Another worry! And the Bolderby Old
Crome was gone—Dumetrius had got it—all because that anonymous
letter had put it out of his thoughts. He furtively remarked the
strained look on his daughter's face, as if she too were gazing
at a picture that she couldn't buy. He almost wished the War
back. Worries didn't seem, then, quite so worrying. From the
caress in her voice, the look on her face, he became certain that
she wanted something from him, uncertain whether it would be wise
of him to give it her. He pushed his savoury away uneaten, and
even joined her in a cigarette.

After dinner she set the electric piano-player going. And he
augured the worst when she sat down on a cushion footstool at his
knee, and put her hand on his.

“Darling, be nice to me. I had to see Jon—he wrote to me. He's
going to try what he can do with his mother. But I've been
thinking. It's really in your hands, Father. If you'd persuade
her that it doesn't mean renewing the past in any way! That I
shall stay yours, and Jon will stay hers; that you need never see
him or her, and she need never see you or me! Only you could
persuade her, dear, because only you could promise. One can't
promise for other people. Surely it wouldn't be too awkward for
you to see her just this once now that Jon's father is dead?”

“Too awkward?” Soames repeated. “The whole thing's preposterous.”

“You know,” said Fleur, without looking up, “you wouldn't mind
seeing her, really.”

Soames was silent. Her words had expressed a truth too deep for
him to admit. She slipped her fingers between his own—hot, slim,
eager, they clung there. This child of his would corkscrew her
way into a brick wall!

“What am I to do if you won't, Father?” she said very softly.

“I'll do anything for your happiness,” said Soanies; “but this
isn't for your happiness.”

“Oh! it is; it is!”

“It'll only stir things up,” he said grimly.

“But they are stirred up. The thing is to quiet them. To make her
feel that this is just our lives, and has nothing to do with
yours or hers. You can do it, Father, I know you can.”

“You know a great deal, then,” was Soames' glum answer.

“If you will, Jon and I will wait a year—two years if you like.”

“It seems to me,” murmured Soames, “that you care nothing about
what I feel.”

Fleur pressed his hand against her cheek.

“I do, darling. But you wouldn't like me to be awfully
miserable.”

How she wheedled to get her ends! And trying with all his might
to think she really cared for him—he was not sure—not sure. All
she cared for was this boy! Why should he help her to get this
boy, who was killing her affection for himself? Why should he? By
the laws of the Forsytes it was foolish! There was nothing to be
had out of it—nothing! To give her to that boy! To pass her into
the enemy's camp, under the influence of the woman who had
injured him so deeply! Slowly—inevitably—he would lose this
flower of his life! And suddenly he was conscious that his hand
was wet. His heart gave a little painful jump. He couldn't bear
her to cry. He put his other hand quickly over hers, and a tear
dropped on that, too. He couldn't go on like this! “Well, well,”
he said, “I'll think it over, and do what I can. Come, come!” If
she must have it for her happiness—she must; he couldn't refuse
to help her. And lest she should begin to thank him he got out of
his chair and went up to the piano-player—making that noise! It
ran down, as he reached it, with a faint buzz. That musical box
of his nursery days: “The Harmonious Blacksmith,” “Glorious
Port”—the thing had always made him miserable when his mother set
it going on Sunday afternoons. Here it was again—the same thing,
only larger, more expensive, and now it played “The Wild, Wild
Women,” and “The Policeman's Holiday,” and he was no longer in
black velvet with a sky blue collar. 'Profond's right,' he
thought, 'there's nothing in it! We're all progressing to the
grave!' And with that surprising mental comment he walked out.

He did not see Fleur again that night. But, at breakfast, her
eyes followed him about with an appeal he could not escape—not
that he intended to try. No! He had made up his mind to the
nerve-racking business. He would go to Robin Hill—to that house
of memories. Pleasant memory—the last! Of going down to keep that
boy's father and Irene apart by threatening divorce. He had often
thought, since, that it had clinched their union. And, now, he
was going to clinch the union of that boy with his girl. 'I don't
know what I've done,' he thought, 'to have such things thrust on
me!' He went up by train and down by train, and from the station
walked by the long rising lane, still very much as he remembered
it over thirty years ago. Funny—so near London! Some one
evidently was holding on to the land there. This speculation
soothed him, moving between the high hedges slowly, so as not to
get overheated, though the day was chill enough. After all was
said and done there was something real about land, it didn't
shift. Land, and good pictures! The values might fluctuate a bit,
but on the whole they were always going up—worth holding on to,
in a world where there was such a lot of unreality, cheap
building, changing fashions, such a “Here to-day and gone
to-morrow” spirit. The French were right, perhaps, with their
peasant proprietorship, though he had no opinion of the French.
One's bit of land! Something solid in it! He had heard peasant
proprietors described as a pig-headed lot; had heard young Mont
call his father a pigheaded Morning Poster—disrespectful young
devil. Well, there were worse things than being pig-headed or
reading the Morning Post. There was Profond and his tribe, and
all these Labour chaps, and loud-mouthed politicians and 'wild,
wild women'. A lot of worse things! And suddenly Soames became
conscious of feeling weak, and hot, and shaky. Sheer nerves at
the meeting before him! As Aunt Juley might have said—quoting
“Superior Dosset”—his nerves were “in a proper fautigue.” He
could see the house now among its trees, the house he had watched
being built, intending it for himself and this woman, who, by
such strange fate, had lived in it with another after all! He
began to think of Dumetrius, Local Loans, and other forms of
investment. He could not afford to meet her with his nerves all
shaking; he who represented the Day of Judgment for her on earth
as it was in heaven; he, legal ownership, personified, meeting
lawless beauty, incarnate. His dignity demanded impassivity
during this embassy designed to link their offspring, who, if she
had behaved herself, would have been brother and sister. That
wretched tune, “The Wild, Wild Women,” kept running in his head,
perversely, for tunes did not run there as a rule. Passing the
poplars in front of the house, he thought: 'How they've grown; I
had them planted!' A maid answered his ring.

“Will you say—Mr. Forsyte, on a very special matter.”

If she realised who he was, quite probably she would not see him.
'By George!' he thought, hardening as the tug came. 'It's a
topsy-turvy affair!'

The maid came back. “Would the gentleman state his business,
please?”

“Say it concerns Mr. Jon,” said Soames.

And once more he was alone in that hall with the pool of
grey-white marble designed by her first lover. Ah! she had been a
bad lot—had loved two men, and not himself! He must remember that
when he came face to face with her once more. And suddenly he saw
her in the opening chink between the long heavy purple curtains,
swaying, as if in hesitation; the old perfect poise and line, the
old startled dark-eyed gravity, the old calm defensive voice:
“Will you come in, please?”

He passed through that opening. As in the picture-gallery and the
confectioner's shop, she seemed to him still beautiful. And this
was the first time—the very first—since he married her
seven-and-thirty years ago, that he was speaking to her without
the legal right to call her his. She was not wearing black—one of
that fellow's radical notions, he supposed.

“I apologise for coming,” he said glumly; “but this business must
be settled one way or the other.”

“Won't you sit down?”

“No, thank you.”

Anger at his false position, impatience of ceremony between them,
mastered him, and words came tumbling out:

“It's an infernal mischance; I've done my best to discourage it.
I consider my daughter crazy, but I've got into the habit of
indulging her; that's why I'm here. I suppose you're fond of your
son.”

“Devotedly.”

“Well?”

“It rests with him.”

He had a sense of being met and baffled. Always—always she had
baffled him, even in those old first married days.

“It's a mad notion,” he said.

“It is.”

“If you had only—! Well—they might have been—” he did not finish
that sentence “brother and sister and all this saved,” but he saw
her shudder as if he had, and stung by the sight he crossed over
to the window. Out there the trees had not grown—they couldn't,
they were old!

“So far as I'm concerned,” he said, “you may make your mind easy.
I desire to see neither you nor your son if this marriage comes
about. Young people in these days are—are unaccountable. But I
can't bear to see my daughter unhappy. What am I to say to her
when I go back?”

“Please say to her as I said to you, that it rests with Jon.”

“You don't oppose it?”

“With all my heart; not with my lips.”

Soames stood, biting his finger.

“I remember an evening—” he said suddenly; and was silent. What
was there—what was there in this woman that would not fit into
the four corners of his hate or condemnation? “Where is he—your
son?”

“Up in his father's studio, I think.”

“Perhaps you'd have him down.”

He watched her ring the bell, he watched the maid come in.

“Please tell Mr. Jon that I want him.”

“If it rests with him,” said Soames hurriedly, when the maid was
gone, “I suppose I may take it for granted that this unnatural
marriage will take place; in that case there'll be formalities.
Whom do I deal with—Herring's?”

Irene nodded.

“You don't propose to live with them?”

Irene shook her head.

“What happens to this house?”

“It will be as Jon wishes.”

“This house,” said Soames suddenly: “I had hopes when I began it.
If they live in it—their children! They say there's such a thing
as Nemesis. Do you believe in it?”

“Yes.”

“Oh! You do!”

He had come back from the window, and was standing close to her,
who, in the curve of her grand piano, was, as it were, embayed.

“I'm not likely to see you again,” he said slowly. “Will you
shake hands”—his lip quivered, the words came out jerkily—“and
let the past die.” He held out his hand. Her pale face grew
paler, her eyes so dark, rested immovably on his, her hands
remained clasped in front of her. He heard a sound and turned.
That boy was standing in the opening of the curtains. Very queer
he looked, hardly recognisable as the young fellow he had seen in
the Gallery off Cork Street—very queer; much older, no youth in
the face at all—haggard, rigid, his hair ruffled, his eyes deep
in his head. Soames made an effort, and said with a lift of his
lip, not quite a smile nor quite a sneer:

“Well, young man! I'm here for my daughter; it rests with you, it
seems—this matter. Your mother leaves it in your hands.”

The boy continued staring at his mother's face, and made no
answer.

“For my daughter's sake I've brought myself to come,” said
Soames. “What am I to say to her when I go back?”

Still looking at his mother, the boy said, quietly:

“Tell Fleur that it's no good, please; I must do as my father
wished before he died.”

“Jon!”

“It's all right, Mother.”

In a kind of stupefaction Soames looked from one to the other;
then, taking up hat and umbrella which he had put down on a
chair, he walked toward the curtains. The boy stood aside for him
to go by. He passed through and heard the grate of the rings as
the curtains were drawn behind him. The sound liberated something
in his chest.

'So that's that!' he thought, and passed out of the front door.

VIII.—THE DARK TUNE

As Soames walked away from the house at Robin Hill the sun broke
through the grey of that chill afternoon, in smoky radiance. So
absorbed in landscape painting that he seldom looked seriously
for effects of Nature out of doors—he was struck by that moody
effulgence—it mourned with a triumph suited to his own feeling.
Victory in defeat. His embassy had come to naught. But he was rid
of those people, had regained his daughter at the expense of—her
happiness. What would Fleur say to him? Would she believe he had
done his best? And under that sunlight faring on the elms,
hazels, hollies of the lane and those unexploited fields, Soames
felt dread. She would be terribly upset! He must appeal to her
pride. That boy had given her up, declared part and lot with the
woman who so long ago had given her father up! Soames clenched
his hands. Given him up, and why? What had been wrong with him?
And once more he felt the malaise of one who contemplates himself
as seen by another—like a dog who chances on his refection in a
mirror and is intrigued and anxious at the unseizable thing.

Not in a hurry to get home, he dined in town at the Connoisseurs.
While eating a pear it suddenly occurred to him that, if he had
not gone down to Robin Hill, the boy might not have so decided.
He remembered the expression on his face while his mother was
refusing the hand he had held out. A strange, an awkward thought!
Had Fleur cooked her own goose by trying to make too sure?

He reached home at half-past nine. While the car was passing in
at one drive gate he heard the grinding sputter of a motor-cycle
passing out by the other. Young Mont, no doubt, so Fleur had not
been lonely. But he went in with a sinking heart. In the
cream-panelled drawing-room she was sitting with her elbows on
her knees, and her chin on her clasped hands, in front of a white
camellia plant which filled the fireplace. That glance at her
before she saw him renewed his dread. What was she seeing among
those white camellias?

“Well, Father!”

Soames shook his head. His tongue failed him. This was murderous
work! He saw her eyes dilate, her lips quivering.

“What? What? Quick, Father!”

“My dear,” said Soames, “I—I did my best, but—” And again he
shook his head.

Fleur ran to him, and put a hand on each of his shoulders.

“She?”

“No,” muttered Soames; “he. I was to tell you that it was no use;
he must do what his father wished before he died.” He caught her
by the waist. “Come, child, don't let them hurt you. They're not
worth your little finger.”

Fleur tore herself from his grasp.

“You didn't you—couldn't have tried. You—you betrayed me,
Father!”

Bitterly wounded, Soames gazed at her passionate figure writhing
there in front of him.

“You didn't try—you didn't—I was a fool! I won't believe he
could—he ever could! Only yesterday he—! Oh! why did I ask you?”

“Yes,” said Soames, quietly, “why did you? I swallowed my
feelings; I did my best for you, against my judgment—and this is
my reward. Good-night!”

With every nerve in his body twitching he went toward the door.

Fleur darted after him.

“He gives me up? You mean that? Father!”

Soames turned and forced himself to answer:

“Yes.”

“Oh!” cried Fleur. “What did you—what could you have done in
those old days?”

The breathless sense of really monstrous injustice cut the power
of speech in Soames' throat. What had he done! What had they done
to him!

And with quite unconscious dignity he put his hand on his breast,
and looked at her.

“It's a shame!” cried Fleur passionately.

Soames went out. He mounted, slow and icy, to his picture
gallery, and paced among his treasures. Outrageous! Oh!
Outrageous! She was spoiled! Ah! and who had spoiled her? He
stood still before the Goya copy. Accustomed to her own way in
everything. Flower of his life! And now that she couldn't have
it! He turned to the window for some air. Daylight was dying, the
moon rising, gold behind the poplars! What sound was that? Why!
That piano thing! A dark tune, with a thrum and a throb! She had
set it going—what comfort could she get from that? His eyes
caught movement down there beyond the lawn, under the trellis of
rambler roses and young acacia-trees, where the moonlight fell.
There she was, roaming up and down. His heart gave a little
sickening jump. What would she do under this blow? How could he
tell? What did he know of her—he had only loved her all his
life—looked on her as the apple of his eye! He knew nothing—had
no notion. There she was—and that dark tune—and the river
gleaming in the moonlight!

'I must go out,' he thought.

He hastened down to the drawing-room, lighted just as he had left
it, with the piano thrumming out that waltz, or fox-trot, or
whatever they called it in these days, and passed through on to
the verandah.

Where could he watch, without her seeing him? And he stole down
through the fruit garden to the boat-house. He was between her
and the river now, and his heart felt lighter. She was his
daughter, and Annette's—she wouldn't do anything foolish; but
there it was—he didn't know! From the boat house window he could
see the last acacia and the spin of her skirt when she turned in
her restless march. That tune had run down at last—thank
goodness! He crossed the floor and looked through the farther
window at the water slow-flowing past the lilies. It made little
bubbles against them, bright where a moon-streak fell. He
remembered suddenly that early morning when he had slept on the
house-boat after his father died, and she had just been
born—nearly nineteen years ago! Even now he recalled the
unaccustomed world when he woke up, the strange feeling it had
given him. That day the second passion of his life began—for this
girl of his, roaming under the acacias. What a comfort she had
been to him! And all the soreness and sense of outrage left him.
If he could make her happy again, he didn't care! An owl flew,
queeking, queeking; a bat flitted by; the moonlight brightened
and broadened on the water. How long was she going to roam about
like this! He went back to the window, and suddenly saw her
coming down to the bank. She stood quite close, on the
landing-stage. And Soames watched, clenching his hands. Should he
speak to her? His excitement was intense. The stillness of her
figure, its youth, its absorption in despair, in longing,
in—itself. He would always remember it, moonlit like that; and
the faint sweet reek of the river and the shivering of the willow
leaves. She had everything in the world that he could give her,
except the one thing that she could not have because of him! The
perversity of things hurt him at that moment, as might a
fish-bone in his throat.

Then, with an infinite relief, he saw her turn back toward the
house. What could he give her to make amends? Pearls, travel,
horses, other young men—anything she wanted—that he might lose
the memory of her young figure lonely by the water! There! She
had set that tune going again! Why—it was a mania! Dark,
thrumming, faint, travelling from the house. It was as though she
had said: “If I can't have something to keep me going, I shall
die of this!” Soames dimly understood. Well, if it helped her,
let her keep it thrumming on all night! And, mousing back through
the fruit garden, he regained the verandah. Though he meant to go
in and speak to her now, he still hesitated, not knowing what to
say, trying hard to recall how it felt to be thwarted in love. He
ought to know, ought to remember—and he could not! Gone—all real
recollection; except that it had hurt him horribly. In this
blankness he stood passing his handkerchief over hands and lips,
which were very dry. By craning his head he could just see Fleur,
standing with her back to that piano still grinding out its tune,
her arms tight crossed on her breast, a lighted cigarette between
her lips, whose smoke half veiled her face. The expression on it
was strange to Soames, the eyes shone and stared, and every
feature was alive with a sort of wretched scorn and anger. Once
or twice he had seen Annette look like that—the face was too
vivid, too naked, not his daughter's at that moment. And he dared
not go in, realising the futility of any attempt at consolation.
He sat down in the shadow of the ingle-nook.

Monstrous trick, that Fate had played him! Nemesis! That old
unhappy marriage! And in God's name-why? How was he to know, when
he wanted Irene so violently, and she consented to be his, that
she would never love him? The tune died and was renewed, and died
again, and still Soames sat in the shadow, waiting for he knew
not what. The fag of Fleur's cigarette, flung through the window,
fell on the grass; he watched it glowing, burning itself out. The
moon had freed herself above the poplars, and poured her
unreality on the garden. Comfortless light, mysterious,
withdrawn—like the beauty of that woman who had never loved
him—dappling the nemesias and the stocks with a vesture not of
earth. Flowers! And his flower so unhappy! Ah! Why could one not
put happiness into Local Loans, gild its edges, insure it against
going down?

Light had ceased to flow out now from the drawing-room window.
All was silent and dark in there. Had she gone up? He rose, and,
tiptoeing, peered in. It seemed so! He entered. The verandah kept
the moonlight out; and at first he could see nothing but the
outlines of furniture blacker than the darkness. He groped toward
the farther window to shut it. His foot struck a chair, and he
heard a gasp. There she was, curled and crushed into the corner
of the sofa! His hand hovered. Did she want his consolation? He
stood, gazing at that ball of crushed frills and hair and
graceful youth, trying to burrow its way out of sorrow. How leave
her there? At last he touched her hair, and said:

“Come, darling, better go to bed. I'll make it up to you,
somehow.” How fatuous! But what could he have said?

IX.—UNDER THE OAK-TREE

When their visitor had disappeared Jon and his mother stood
without speaking, till he said suddenly:

“I ought to have seen him out.”

But Soames was already walking down the drive, and Jon went
upstairs to his father's studio, not trusting himself to go back.