Chapter XVII: Part III: Marriage

Zeppelin raid and influenza, 222
Living in the country, 223, 227, 228
Reads his doctor's certificate after visit to recruiting-office, 225, 238
Self-disgust, 223, 224, 225, 247, 250 (_nude_), 267
Mental agony, 226, 227
Conversations: with R., 229
with Scarabees, 230, 239, 243
Halcyon days, 233, 235, 238
A natural idiot climbs a stile on uplands, 240
Tension, 250, 252
The War, 237 (_Jutland_), 242, 247, 248, 249
Another nervous breakdown, 253
How E. knew all the time, 255, 256
Self-compassion, 251, 304
Home ill, 257 ("_in the doldrums_"), 259, 265
Returns to work, 278
Ill again, 285
From an invalid's view-point, 292, 293 (_by his bedroom window_)
Post-mortem affairs, 291
Resigns appointment, 294, 299
Self-consciousness and self-dramatization, 255, 265, 267
A badly articulated skeleton, 274
Cold weather in January, 276, 277, 278
On Death, 275, 283, 286, 291
His phosphorescent Journals, 291
Morphia and laudanum, 280, 300
Great misery, 303, 305

INDEX OF NAMES

A----, 21, 51, 82, 97, 98, 121, 158, 206, 285, 298
_"Academy," The_, 23, 24, 106, 296
_Adventure in Search of Health, An_, 260
A Kempis, Thomas, 28
_Albert Hall, Hag, The_, 147
_Ambition_, 29
"_American Naturalist_," 295
_American Neighbour, An_, 251
_Apologia pro mea vita_, 145
_Archæopteryx and Mudflats_, 289
_Aristotle's Lantern_, 19
_At a Public Dinner_, 175
_At C----, a tiny little village by the Sea in N_----, 65
_At Home_, 82
_At the Albert Hall_, 127
Austen, Jane, 268
_Average Day, An_, 172

B----, 102, 107, 114, 118, 119
_Baby-Girl, A_, 263
_Bad Listener, A_, 246
Baring, Maurice, 188
_Bathing_, 60
Baudelaire, 60, 62, 173, 183, 197, 198, 258
Beerbohm, Max, 269
_Beethoven's Fifth Symphony_, 161, 186
Benson, A.C., 249
Bergson, 47, 55, 78, 183, 198
Berkeley, 275
Blind Mathilde, 139
Boeltzig, R., 103
Bradford, Sir John Rose, 54
Brieux, 162
_"Brilliant Career," A_, 62
British Museum, 26, 29, 49, 57, 59, 61, 79, 94, 132, 174, 178,
225, 274, 282, 283, 295
_British Museum Reading Room, The_, 100
Brooke, Rupert, 266
Browne, Sir Thomas, 146, 183, 238
Buchanan, Robert, 251
Bunyan, 166
Burke, 2
Burlington House, 29
Burton, 125
Butler, Samuel, 143, 171, 185, 291
_Buxom Rogue in Earthenware, A_, 216
_By the Sea_, 61
Byron, 266

_Camping out at S---- Sands_, 91
Carlyle, 120, 171
Cassell's _Natural History_, 13
_Chalcidoidea, The_, 221
_Character, A_, 39
_Chinese Lanterns_, 280
_Chipples_, 220
_Chopin_, 157
_Clever Young Man, The_, 207
Coleridge, 266
_Confession, A_, 74
Conrad, 50, 223
_Crowd Fever_, 278
_Cynicism_, 288

D----, 69, 180
Darwin, 6, 55
_Day in Autumn, A_, 51
_Death_, 33, 84, 275, 286
Debussy, 161, 162, 167
De Goncourt, 227, 228
De Guérin, 200, 277, 282
De Maupassant, Guy, 63, 266
_Depression_, 89
De Quincey, 10, 42, 126, 187, 196, 286
Devonshire Club, 32
_Dinosaurs_, 129
Disraeli, 258
_Dr. Spurgeon_, 90
Dostoieffsky, 132, 163, 167, 187
Duke, Mr., K.C., 17

E----, 68, 78, 79, 107, 171, 191, 192, 193, 194, 201, 209, 220, 223, 226,
228, 233, 235, 236, 238, 240, 251, 253, 254, 255, 256, 257, 259, 260,
261, 263, 274, 277, 283, 291, 292, 294, 298, 299, 300, 301, 302, 303,
304
_Early Boughies_, 66
_Empress of Ireland_, 127
_English Review_, 101, 105, 142
_Equilibrium Restored_, 245
_Entomological Society, The_, 110

Father, 34, 50, 51, 137
_Finis_, 225, 285
_Fire Bogey, The_, 170
_Foolish Bird, A_, 118
"_Fortnightly_," 61
"_Forum_," 296
Foster, Sir Michael, 209
_From one Maiden Lady to another (authentic)_, 37

G----, 78, 197, 215
_Gardening_,83
Gaskel, 23, 55
Gibbon, 129, 258
_Gibbon's Autobiography_, 268
Gissing, George, 32
Goethe, 146
_Graph of Temperament, The,_ 287

H----, 7, 8, 13, 38, 51, 60, 75, 76, 77, 78, 79, 80, 82, 83, 89, 92,
94, 114, 180, 196, 206, 218, 285
Haeckel, 23, 300
_Harmsworth Encyclopædia_, 294
Harmsworth _Self-Educator_, 10
Hardy, 24, 282
_Hardy's Poetry_, 264
_Hearing Beethoven_, 172
Hegel, 146
Henley, 208, 209
Herdman, Prof., 46
Hervey, 170
Horton, Max Kennedy, 141
_Housefly Problem, The_--1916, 231
_Humble Confession, A_, 115
Huxley, 37, 163

"_Illustrated London News_," 53
_In a Crowd_, 184
_In London_, 59
_In London again_, 93, 99

J----, 78, 263
James, 163, 166
Jefferies, Richard, 44, 233
_Jeremiad, A_, 294
Johnson, 2, 10, 180, 181, 196, 230
_Johnson_ v. _Yves Delage_, 181
_Jolt, A_, 247
Jonson, Ben, 171
Joubert, 291
_Justifiable Mendacity_, 52

K----, 80, 99, 138, 225
Kant, 257
Keats, 10, 145, 146, 258

L----, 1, 3, 4, 43, 98
Lacépède, 146
Lamb, Charles, 13, 120, 227, 230
Landor, W.S., 265
La Rochefoucauld, 31
_Leap-frog_, 302
Lodge, Sir Oliver, 286
_Liebestod_, 302
_Lice or "Creeping Ferlies_," 213
_Looking for Lice at the Zoo_, 177
Lubbock, 7
_Ludo_, 104
_Lupus_, 125
_Luxury of Lunacy, The_, 195

M----, 12, 20, 62, 69, 70, 80, 81, 96, 105, 106, 134, 140, 156,
222, 225, 226, 255, 250, 259, 260
Macaulay, 30
Maeterlinck, 42
Malpighi, 171
_Marie Bashkirtseff_, 139, 163, 175, 238
Mary, 8, 23, 28
_Masefield's "Gallipoli,"_ 269
_Measuring Lice_, 125
Moffat, 161
Moore, Tom, 173
_More Irony_, 105
Mosenthal, 13
Mother, 34, 50, 51, 59, 93, 95, 97, 137
Mozart, 161
_My Gastrocnemius_, 208
_My Nightmare_, 105
_My Sense of Touch_, 91

N----, 29, 78, 121, 122, 257, 261
_Naming Cockroaches_, 184
Natural History Museum, 6, 54
_New Pile in the Pier, A_, 88
Newton, 171
Nietzsche, 137, 156

_Old Diaries_, 44
_Omniscience_, 239
_On Lighting Chloe's Cigarette,_ 119
_On Lundy Island_, 21
_On the N. Downs_, 68
_Our Simian Ancestry_, 27

P----, 76, 78, 79, 80
_Pachmann_, 234
Pascal, 293
_Petticoat Lane_, 163
Piers Plowman, 221
Plymouth Marine Laboratory, 29, 32,47, 79
_Pool: a Retrospect, The_, 189
_Potted Novel, A_, 284
_Prawning_, 17
_Preparing a Snake's Skull_, 50
"_Punch_," 296
_Punch and Judy Show, The,_ 180

R----, 81, 99, 101, 104, 107, 115, 119, 120, 122, 123, 124,
127, 128, 130, 131, 132, 133, 134, 135, 136, 140, 141, 148,
151, 154, 166, 167, 169, 172, 173, 174, 175, 182, 197, 205,
207, 208, 209, 215, 2l6, 217, 227, 228, 229, 230, 239, 240,
241, 295, 299, 303
_Raemakers_, 186
_Railway Travel_, 41
_Raleigh, Sir Walter_, 129, 196
_Reading Nietzsche_, 156
_Reminiscences_, 270
_Renunciation_, 85
_Resignation_, 141
_Restlessness of the Sea, The,_ 90
Richepin, 57
Richelieu, Cardinal, 155
_Rigor Bordis_, 148
_Rodin_, 103, 157, 160
Romney, 169
Rousseau, 63, 181, 268
Ruskin, 30, 190, 208, 216

S----, 1, 3
Saintsbury, Prof. Geo., 126
Sainte-Beuve, 200, 277
Schäfer, 110
Schopenhauer, 34
Schubert, 173, 174
_Scots Fir, A_, 111
Scott, 75, 153
_Service_, 264
Shakespeare, 264
Shaw, Bernard, 59, 150, 166, 249
Shelley, 196, 266, 293
_Sir Henry Wood conducting_, 159
_Sleep_, 206
_Small Red Viper, A_, 16
Smiles, Samuel, 14
Smollett, 291
_Sollas's "Ancient Hunters,"_ 72
Southey, 16
Spallanzani, 47, 71, 112
Spinoza, 16
_Spring in the Woods_, 15
_Staying by the Sea_, 43
_Stagnancy_, 84
_Stagnant Day, A_, 111
Stevenson, 63, 106, 161, 208, 209
_Stockbroker, The_, 252
_Strangeness of my Life, The,_ 281
Strindberg, 139
Susan, 254
_Sunset in Kensington Gardens_, 130
Swift, 230
Swinburne, 61, 290

T----, 14, 171, 246

"_T.P.'s Weekly_," 41
Tennyson, 154, 264
_Test for True Love, The_, 157
_Test of Happiness, A_, 185
Thompson, Francis, 266
Thoreau, 181
_Too Late_, 144
_Tschaikovsky_, 161, 162
Turner, J.M.W., 154, 167
_Two Adventures_, 212
_Two Months' Sick Leave_, 80
_Two People I hate in particular,_ 186
_Two Young Men Talking_, 60

_Une Caractère_, 53

Verlaine, 60
Villon, Francois, 173
Voltaire, 63, 163

Wagner, 166
Wallace, 23, 37
Walton, Isaac, 8
Wasmann, Father, 47
Waterton, 159
Wells, H.G., 291
Whistler, 222
White, Gilbert, 159
Whitman, Walt, 189, 253
Wilde, Oscar, 76, 143, 152, 175, 258
_Windy Ash_,35
_Wiedersheim_, 106, 145, 159, 257
_Woman and a Child, A_, 146
Wood, Sir Henry, 157, 159, 172, 201
Woodward, Dr. Smith, 145

_Yellow Cat, A_, 241

Zola, 17