Chapter XVIII: Five Months’ Captivity at Tsarskoïe-Selo

(MARCH--AUGUST, 1917)

The Imperial family remained at Tsarskoïe-Selo until the month of August, 1917. During the five months of this internment with them I kept a diary of our life together. It will be understood that delicacy of feeling prevents me from reproducing it in its entirety. I wish to avoid as much as possible bringing in people who are still alive. I shall, however, break through this reserve when it is a question of dealing with incidents which throw light on the character of the Czar and his family or their feelings during these long months of trial.

_Sunday, April 1st._--Alexis Nicolaïevitch feeling much better. We
went to church this morning, where we found Their Majesties, the
Grand-Duchesses Olga and Tatiana, and the various members of the
suite who are sharing our captivity. When the priest prayed for the
success of the Russian and Allied armies the Czar and Czarina knelt
down, the whole congregation following their example.

A few days ago, as I was leaving Alexis Nicolaïevitch’s room, I met
ten soldiers wandering about in the passage. I went up to them and
asked what they wanted.

“We want to see the Heir.”

“He’s in bed and can’t be seen.”

“And the others?”

“They are also unwell.”

“And where is the Czar?”

“I don’t know.”

“Will he be going out?”

“I don’t know; but come, don’t hang about here. There must be no
noise because of the invalids!”

They went back, walking on their toes and talking in low voices.
These are the soldiers depicted to us as wild revolutionaries
hating their ex-Czar.

_Tuesday, April 3rd._--To-day Kerenski came to the palace for the
first time. He went through all the rooms and noted all the
sentry-posts, wishing to assure himself in person that we are well
guarded. Before leaving he had a fairly long conversation with the
Czar and Czarina.

_Wednesday, April 4th._--Alexis Nicolaïevitch related to me
yesterday’s conversation between Kerensky and the Czar and Czarina.

The whole family was collected in the apartment of the
Grand-Duchesses. Kerensky entered and introduced himself, saying:

“I am the Procurator-General, Kerensky.”

Then he shook hands all round. Turning to the Czarina, he said:

“The Queen of England asks for news of the ex-Czarina.”

Her Majesty blushed violently. It was the first time that she had
been addressed as ex-Czarina. She

Near to the wooden hut, the Czarina in white, with a parasol, and two of the Grand-Duchesses. In the centre, to the right, the Czar Nicholas II. The Alexander Palace in the background.

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answered that she was fairly well, but that her heart was troubling
her as usual. Kerensky went on:

“Anything I begin I always carry through to the bitter end, with
all my might. I wanted to see everything myself, to verify
everything so as to be able to report at Petrograd, and it will be
better for you.”

He then asked the Czar to go with him into the next room as he
wished to speak to him in private. He went in first and the Czar
followed.

After his departure, the Czar told us that no sooner were they
alone than Kerensky said to him:

“You know I’ve succeeded in getting the death penalty abolished?...
I’ve done this in spite of the fact that a great number of my
comrades have died, martyrs to their convictions.”

Was he trying to make a display of his magnanimity, and insinuating
that he was saving the Czar’s life though the latter had done
nothing to deserve it?

He then spoke of our departure, which he still hopes to be able to
arrange. When? Where? How? He did not know himself, and asked that
the matter should not be discussed.

This has been a hard blow for Alexis Nicolaïevitch. He has not yet
realised their new situation. It was the first time he had seen his
father receive orders and obey like a subordinate.

It is worthy of note that Kerensky arrived at the palace in one of
the Czar’s private cars, driven by a chauffeur from the Imperial
garage.

_Friday, April 6th._--The Czar told me to-day of the distress the
papers cause him. It is the ruin of the army; no more hierarchy or
discipline. The officers are afraid of their men and are spied upon
by them. One feels the Czar is hard hit by the collapse of the army
which is so dear to him.

_Sunday, April 8th._--After Mass, Kerensky announced to the Czar
that he was obliged to separate him from the Czarina--that he will
have to live apart, only seeing Her Majesty at meals, and that on
condition that only Russian is spoken. Tea, too, may be taken
together, but in the presence of an officer, as no servants are
present.

A little later the Czarina came up to me in a great state of
agitation, and said:

“To think of his acting like this to the Czar, playing this low
trick after his self-sacrifice and his abdication to avoid civil
war; how mean, how despicable! The Czar would not have had a single
Russian shed his blood for him. He has always been ready to
renounce all when he knew that it was for the good of Russia.”

A moment later she went on:

“Yes, this horrible bitterness must be endured too.”

_Monday, April 9th._--I learn that Kerensky had intended at first
to isolate the Czarina, but it was pointed out to him that it would
be inhuman to separate a mother from her sick children; it was then
that he decided to isolate the Czar.

_April 13th, Good Friday._--In the evening the whole family went to
Confession.

_Saturday, April 14th._--In the morning, at half-past nine, Mass
and Holy Communion. In the evening, at half-past eleven, everyone
went to church for the midnight service. Colonel Korovitchenko,
the Commandant of the palace and friend of Kerensky, and the three
officers of the guard were also present. The service lasted until
two o’clock, when we went to the library to exchange the
traditional greetings. The Czar, according to Russian custom,
embraced all the men present, including the Commandant and officers
of the guard, who had remained with him. The two men could not hide
their emotion at this spontaneous act.

We then took our places at a round table for the Easter meal. Their
Majesties sat facing one another. There were seventeen of us,
including the two officers. The Grand-Duchesses Olga and Marie were
not present, nor Alexis Nicolaïevitch. The comparative animation
which marked the beginning soon relapsed and conversation flagged.
His Majesty was particularly silent. Was it sadness or fatigue?

_Sunday, April 15th, Easter Day._--We went out for the first time
with Alexis Nicolaïevitch on the terrace in front of the palace. A
superb spring day.

In the evening at seven o’clock a religious service upstairs in the
children’s apartments. There were only fifteen of us. I noticed
that the Czar crossed himself piously when the priest prayed for
the Provisional Government.

On the following day, as the weather was still very fine, we went
out into the park, where we are now allowed to take the air,
followed by officers of the guard and sentries.

Wishing to take a little physical exercise, we amused ourselves by
clearing the sluices of the pond of the ice which was blocking
them. A crowd of soldiers and civilians soon lined up along the
park railing and watched our work. After some time the officer of
the guard went up to the Czar and told him that the Commandant of
the Tsarskoïe-Selo garrison had just warned him that he feared a
hostile demonstration or even an attempt on the lives of the
Imperial family, and he would ask us not to remain where we were.
The Czar answered that he had no fear, and that the good people
were not annoying him in any way.

_Wednesday, April 18th._--Whenever we go out, soldiers, with fixed
bayonets and under the command of an officer, surround us and keep
pace with us. We look like convicts with their warders. The
instructions are changed daily, or perhaps the officers interpret
them each in his own way!

This afternoon, when we were going back to the palace after our
walk, the sentry on duty at the gate stopped the Czar, saying:

“You cannot pass, sir.”

The officer with us here intervened. Alexis Nicolaïevitch blushed
hotly to see the soldier stop his father.

_Friday, April 20th._--We now go out regularly twice a day: in the
morning from eleven till noon, in the afternoon from half-past two
to five. We all collect in the semi-circular hall and wait for the
officer commanding the guard to come and open the gates into the
park. We go out; the officer on duty and soldiers fall in behind us
and take station round the place where we stop to work. The Czarina
and Grand-Duchesses Olga and Marie are still confined to their
rooms.

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_Sunday, April 22nd._--We are forbidden to go to the pond; we have
to keep near the palace and not go outside the radius which has
been fixed for us. In the distance we saw a crowd of several
hundred people curious to see us.

_Wednesday, April 25th._--Kerensky returned to the palace. Dr.
Botkin has taken advantage of this to ask if it would be possible
to transfer the Imperial family to Livadia on account of the
children’s health. Kerensky replied that it was quite impossible
for the moment. He then went to see Their Majesties, and remained
some time. Kerensky’s attitude to wards the Czar is no longer what
it was at the beginning; he has given up his judicial bearing. I am
convinced that he is beginning to understand what the Czar is and
yielding to his moral ascendancy like all who come near him.
Kerensky has requested the papers to put an end to their campaign
against the Czar, and more especially the Czarina. These calumnies
simply pour oil on the flames. He feels his responsibility towards
the captives. But not a word about our departure abroad. That
proves his powerlessness.

_Sunday, April 29th._--In the evening a long conversation with
Their Majesties on the subject of Alexis Nicolaïevitch’s lessons.
We must find a way out since we have no longer any tutors. The Czar
is going to make himself responsible for History and Geography, the
Czarina will take charge of his religious instruction. The other
subjects will be shared between Baroness Buxhœveden (English),
Mlle. Schneider (Arithmetic) Dr. Botkin (Russian) and myself.

_Monday, April 30th._--This morning the Czar greeted me with: “Good
morning, dear colleague”--he has just given Alexis Nicolaïevitch
his first lesson. Always the same serenity, the same anxiety to be
agreeable to those who share his captivity. He is an example and an
encouragement to us.

I have given Tatiana Nicolaïevna the article in the _Journal des
Débats_ of April 18th, 1917, signed A. G. (Auguste Gauvain) for her
parents to read.

It is apparent that the régime to which we are being subjected is
becoming continually more severe.

_Tuesday, May 1st._--For the first time Russia celebrates May 1st.
We hear the bands and see the processions of demonstrators pass
along the park railings.

This evening the Czar returned to me the copy of the _Journal des
Débats_ dealing with his abdication. He told me it had given the
Czarina pleasure to read this article, which tried to be fair to
him. Its tone was a contrast to that of the English papers.

_Thursday, May 3rd._--The Czar told me this evening that the news
has not been good for several days. The Extremist parties demand
that France and England should declare themselves ready to make
peace “without annexations or indemnities.” Deserters are becoming
more and more numerous and the army is melting away. Will the
Provisional Government be strong enough to continue the war?

The Czar is following events with acute interest; he is anxious,
but still hopes that the country will pull itself together and
remain faithful to the Allies.

_Sunday, May 13th._--This is the second day we have spent making a
kitchen garden on one of the lawns of the park. We began by taking
up the turf, carrying away the sod on barrows and arranging it in
heaps. Everyone helped: the family, ourselves, and the servants,
who for some time have been going out with us. Several soldiers of
the guard even have come to help us!

The Czar has looked very preoccupied during the last few days. As
we were coming back from our walk he said to me:

“It seems Rvssky has resigned. He had asked that an offensive
should be undertaken. (One _asks_ now; one no longer gives orders!)
The Soldiers’ Committees refused. If this is true it is the end!
What humiliation! To remain on the defensive and not attack is
suicide! We’re going to let our allies be crushed, and then it will
be our turn.”

_Monday, May 14th._--The Czar returned to our conversation of
yesterday, adding:

“What gives me a little hope is our love of exaggeration. I can’t
believe that our army at the front is as bad as they say; it can’t
have fallen to this extent in two months.”

_Thursday, May 17th._--It appears that the end has been reached of
the serious Government crisis that has lasted a fortnight. The news
from Petrograd seems less bad. The new Council of Ministers,
reconstituted with the addition of a few representatives of the
soldiers and workmen, will perhaps succeed in establishing its
authority. Meanwhile anarchy is everywhere gaining ground.

_Saturday, May 19th._--The Czar’s birthday. (He is forty-nine.)
Mass and congratulations.

_Sunday, May 27th._--For some time we have been allowed only a very
small supply of wood, and it is intensely cold everywhere. Mme.
Narichkine (Grand-Mistress of the Court) has been taken ill, and
was sent away to-day, the state of her health demanding care which
cannot be given here. She was in despair at the idea of leaving us,
for she knows she will not be permitted to return to the palace.

_Saturday, June 2nd._--We are still working every day at the
kitchen garden. We are watering it from a tub which we take turns
to drag.

_Sunday, June 10th._--A few days ago the children were playing on
their island (an artificial islet in the middle of a little lake).
Alexis Nicolaïevitch was practising handling his little gun, which
he thinks a lot of, as it was given to the Czar when he was a boy
by his father. An officer came up to us. He told me that the
soldiers had decided to take the gun away from the Czarevitch, and
were coming for it. When he heard this, Alexis Nicolaïevitch put
down his toy and joined the Czarina, who was sitting on the grass a
few yards from us. A moment later the officer on duty came with two
soldiers and demanded that the “weapon” should be given up. I tried
to intervene and make them understand that the gun was not a weapon
but a toy. It was no use: they took possession of it. Alexis
Nicolaïevitch began to sob. His mother asked me to make another
attempt to convince the soldiers, but I did not succeed any better
than the first time, and they went off with their prize.

Half an hour later the officer on duty took me aside

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and asked me to tell the Czarevitch that he was greatly distressed
at what he had had to do. After trying in vain to dissuade the men,
he had chosen to come with them to prevent any discourtesy on their
part.

Colonel Kobylinsky[60] was annoyed to hear of the incident, and
brought back the little gun to Alexis Nicolaïevitch piece by piece.
Since then he has only played with it in his room.

_Friday, June 15th._--We finished our kitchen garden some time ago
and it is now in splendid condition. We have every imaginable kind
of vegetable, and five hundred cabbages. The servants, too, have
made a garden on their side of the palace, where they can cultivate
what they like. We went to help them dig it--the Czar too.

To occupy our leisure now that we have finished our work on the
garden, we have asked and obtained permission to cut down the dead
trees in the park, so we go from place to place, followed by a
guard which moves when we move. We are beginning to be quite
skilful woodcutters. This will give us a supply of wood for next
winter.

_Friday, June 22nd._--As the Grand-Duchesses were losing all their
hair as the result of their illness, their heads have been shaved.
When they go out in the park they wear scarves arranged so as to
conceal the fact. Just as I was going to take their photographs, at
a sign from Olga Nicolaïevna they all suddenly removed their
headdress. I protested, but they insisted, much amused at the idea
of seeing themselves photographed like this, and looking forward to
seeing the indignant surprise of their parents. Their good spirits
reappear from time to time in spite of everything. It is their
exuberant youth.

_Sunday, June 24th._--The days follow one another, all alike,
divided between lessons and walks. This morning the Czar told me of
a rather amusing incident which has broken the monotony of our
seclusion.

He was reading aloud yesterday evening in the red hall to the
Czarina and Grand-Duchesses. Suddenly, about eleven o’clock, a
servant entered in a great state of agitation and announced that
the Commandant requested an immediate interview with the Czar. The
latter thought that something very serious must have happened at
Petrograd--a great armed demonstration by the Bolsheviks against
the Provisional Government was expected--and he gave orders for him
to be shown in. The officer entered, accompanied by two
non-commissioned officers. He explained that he had been summoned
by a shot from a sentry, who, from the park, had noticed signals
with red and green lights from the room in which the family were
sitting. General amazement. What signals? What did it all mean?
Great excitement on the part of the Czarina and Grand-Duchesses.
The officer then gave orders for the curtains to be closely
drawn--it was stiflingly hot--and was about to retire. At this
moment one of the N.C.O.’s came forward and explained the mystery.
The Grand-Duchess Anastasie Nicolaïevna was sitting on the
window-ledge doing needlework. Each time she bent forward to pick
up from the table the things she required for her work she was
covering and uncovering in turn two lamps with green and red shades
by which the Czar was reading. The officer retired in confusion.

_Monday, July 2nd._--We have learned that an offensive has been
launched in the direction of Tarnopol, and is being successfully
developed.

_Tuesday, July 3rd._--A _Te Deum_ for the military successes which
seem to presage a great victory. The Czar, radiant, brought Alexis
Nicolaïevitch the evening paper and read him the _communiqués_.

_Thursday, July 12th._--The news from the front is not good. The
offensive which had begun so well is turning against the Russians.

_Sunday, July 15th._--Nothing new in our captivity. The only
distraction is going out. It is very hot, and for some days Alexis
Nicolaïevitch has been bathing in the pond round the children’s
island. It is a great joy to him.

_Wednesday, July 25th._--The check is becoming more and more
serious, the retreat deeper. The Czar is greatly affected.

_Thursday, August 9th._--I learn that the Provisional Government
has decided on the transfer of the Imperial family. The destination
is kept secret; we are all hoping it will be the Crimea.

_Saturday, August 11th._--We have been told that we must provide
ourselves with warm clothing. So we are not to be taken south. A
great disappointment.

_Sunday, August 12th._ (July 30th O.S.).--Alexis Nicolaïevitch’s
birthday (he is thirteen). At the request of the Czarina, the
miraculous ikon of the Holy Virgin has been brought from the
church of Znamenia. Our departure is fixed for to-morrow. Colonel
Kobylinsky has confided to me as a great secret that we are to be
transferred to Tobolsk.

_Monday, August 13th._--We were told to be ready by midnight; the
train was ordered for one o’clock. Final preparations. Farewell
visit to the children’s island, kitchen garden, etc. Shortly before
one in the morning everyone collected in the semi-circular hall,
which was full of luggage. The Grand-Duke Michael arrived with
Kerensky and had an interview with the Czar, who was delighted to
see his brother again before his departure.

The train which was to take us had not yet arrived; there appears
to have been some difficulty with the railway men in Petrograd, who
suspected that city to be the destination of the Imperial family.
The hours passed in waiting, which grew more and more trying.
Should we be able to start? It began to seem doubtful. (This
incident showed up the powerlessness of the Government.) At last,
about five o’clock, we were told that all was ready. We took leave
of those of our fellow-captives who could not leave with us.[61]
Our hearts were wrung at the thought of leaving Tsarskoïe-Selo,

From left to right, behind Countess Benckendorff, seated: Prince Dolgorouky, the author, Countess Hendrikof, Baroness de Buxhœveden, Mlle. Schneider, Count Benckendorff, and Dr. Derevenko.

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to which we were bound by so many memories, and this departure for
the unknown was marked by great sadness. Just as our cars were
leaving the park we were surrounded by a detachment of cavalry,
which escorted us as far as the little station of Alexandrovka. We
took our places in the compartments, which are very comfortable.
Half an hour passed and then the train slowly moved away. It was
ten minutes to six.