Chapter XX: End of Our Captivity at Tobolsk

(JANUARY-MAY, 1918)

On January 1st/14th, 1914, I resumed the diary I had given up when we were transferred to Tobolsk. I shall give a few extracts from it as I did when describing our captivity at Tsarskoïe-Selo.

_Monday, January 14th_ (January 1st O.S.).--This morning we went to
church, where the new priest officiated for the first time. Father
Vassilief (the cause of the incident mentioned in the preceding
chapter) has been transferred by Archbishop Hermogenes to the
monastery of Abalatsky.

_Tuesday, January 15th._--At 2 p.m. there was a meeting of the
committee of our garrison. It was decided by 100 votes to 85 to
prohibit the wearing of epaulettes by officers and men.

_Thursday, January 17th._--Colonel Kobylinsky came this morning. He
wore mufti rather than wear his uniform without epaulettes.

_Friday, January 18th._--The priest and choir[62] arrived at 3
o’clock. To-day is the Blessing of the Waters and the first time
the new priest has officiated in the house. When it was Alexis
Nicolaïevitch’s turn to kiss the cross held out by the priest the
latter bent down and kissed his forehead. After dinner General
Tatichtchef and Prince Dolgorouky came to beg the Czar to remove
his epaulettes in order to avoid a hostile demonstration by the
soldiers. At first it seemed as though the Czar would refuse, but,
after exchanging a look and a few words with the Czarina, he
recovered his self-control and yielded for the sake of his family.

_Saturday, January 19th._--We went to church this morning. The Czar
was wearing a Caucasian cloak, which is always worn without
epaulettes. Alexis Nicolaïevitch had hidden his under his
“bachelik” (a sort of Caucasian muffler). To-day the Czarina, on
behalf of the Czar and herself, invited me to take evening tea[63]
with them in future, when I don’t feel too tired after my lessons.
I did not withdraw therefore at 10 o’clock when the Grand-Duchesses
retired. (Alexis Nicolaïevitch always goes to bed at nine o’clock.)

_Monday, January 21st._--A heavy fall of snow last night. We began
to build a “snow mountain.”

_Friday, January 25th_ (January 12th O.S,).--Tatiana Nicolaïevna’s
birthday. _Te Deum_ in the house. Fine winter’s day; sunshine; 15°
Réaumur. Went on building the snow mountain as usual. The soldiers
of the guard came to help us.

_Wednesday, January 30th._--To-day the friendly section of the 4th
Regiment was on duty. The Czar

Barracks of the detachment which guarded the Czar. The Grand-Duchesses Marie and Anastasie on the balcony. The guard being changed.

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and children spent several hours with the soldiers in the
guard-house.

_Saturday, February 2nd._--23° R. below zero. Prince Dolgorouky and
I watered the snow mountain. We carried thirty buckets of water. It
was so cold that the water froze on the way from the kitchen tap to
the mountain. Our buckets and the snow mountain “steamed.”
To-morrow the children can begin tobogganing.

_Monday, February 4th._--The thermometer is said to have dropped
last night below 30° Réaumur (37° Centigrade). Terrible wind. The
Grand-Duchesses’ bedroom is a real ice-house.

_Wednesday, February 6th._--It appears that on the initiative of
the 2nd Regiment the soldiers have decided that Commissary
Pankratof and his deputy, Nikolsky, must resign.

_Friday, February 8th._--The soldiers’ committee has to-day decided
to replace Pankratof by a Bolshevik commissary from Moscow. Things
are going from bad to worse. It appears that there is no longer a
state of war between Soviet Russia and Germany, Austria, and
Bulgaria. The army is to be disbanded, but Lenin and Trotsky have
not yet signed the peace.

_Wednesday, February 13th._--The Czar tells me that the
demobilisation of the army has begun, several classes having
already been disbanded. All the old soldiers (the most friendly)
are to leave us. The Czar seems very depressed at this prospect;
the change may have disastrous results for us.

_Friday, February 15th._--A certain number of soldiers have
already left. They came secretly to take leave of the Czar and his
family.

At tea in the evening with Their Majesties, General Tatichtchef,
with a frankness justified by the circumstances, expressed his
surprise at finding how intimate and affectionate was the family
life of the Czar and Czarina and their children. The Czar, smiling
at the Czarina, said, “You hear what Tatichtchef says?”

Then, with his usual good-humour tinged with a touch of irony, he
added:

“You have been my aide-de-camp, Tatichtchef, and had ever so many
opportunities of observing us. If you knew so little about us, how
can you expect us to blame the newspapers for what they say about
us?”

_Wednesday, February 20th._--The Czar tells me the Germans have
taken Reval, Rovno, etc., and are still advancing along the whole
front. It is obvious that he is deeply affected.

_Monday, February 25th._--Colonel Kobylinsky has received a
telegram informing him that, from March 1st, “Nicholas Romanoff and
his family must be put on _soldiers’ rations_ and that each member
of the family will receive 600 roubles per month drawn from the
interest of their personal estate.” Hitherto their expenses have
been paid by the state. As the family consists of seven persons,
the whole household will have to be run on 4,200 roubles a
month.[64]

_Tuesday, February 26th._--His Majesty asked me to help him to do
his accounts and draw up a family budget. He has saved a little
from his “toilet allowance.”

_Wednesday, February 27th._--The Czar said jokingly that, since
everyone is appointing committees, he is going to appoint one to
look after the welfare of his own community. It is to consist of
General Tatichtchef, Prince Dolgorouky, and myself. We held a
“sitting” this afternoon and came to the conclusion that the
_personnel_ must be reduced. This is a wrench; we shall have to
dismiss ten servants, several of whom have their families with them
in Tobolsk. When we informed Their Majesties we could see the grief
it caused them. They must part with servants whose very devotion
will reduce them to beggary.

_Friday, March 1st._--The new régime comes into force. From to-day
butter and coffee are excluded from the table as luxuries.

_Monday, March 4th._--The soldiers’ committee has decided to
abolish the snow mountain we have built (it was such a source of
amusement to the children!) because the Czar and Czarina mounted it
to watch the departure of the men of the 4th Regiment. Every day
now brings fresh vexations to the Czar’s family and their suite.
For a long time we have only been allowed to go out when
accompanied by a soldier; it is probable that even this last
privilege will soon be taken from us.

_Tuesday, March 5th._--Yesterday the soldiers, with a hang-dog look
(for they felt it was a mean task), began to destroy the snow
mountain with picks. The children are disconsolate.

_Friday, March 15th._--The townspeople, hearing of our situation,
find various ways of sending us eggs, sweetmeats, and delicacies.

_Sunday, March 17th._--To-day is Carnival Sunday. Everyone is
merry. The sledges pass to and fro under our windows; sound of
bells, mouth-organs, and singing.... The children wistfully watch
the fun. They have begun to grow bored and find their captivity
irksome. They walk round the courtyard, fenced in by its high
paling through which they can see nothing. Since the destruction of
their snow mountain their only distraction is sawing and cutting
wood.

The arrogance of the soldiers is inconceivable; those who have left
have been replaced by a pack of blackguardly-looking young men.

In spite of the daily increase of their sufferings, Their Majesties
still cherish hope that among their loyal friends some may be found
to attempt their release. Never was the situation more favourable
for escape, for there is as yet no representative of the Bolshevik
Government at Tobolsk. With the complicity of Colonel Kobylinsky,
already on our side, it would be easy to trick the insolent but
careless vigilance of our guards. All that is required is the
organised and resolute efforts of a few bold spirits outside. We
have repeatedly urged upon the Czar the necessity of being prepared
for any turn of events. He insists on two conditions which greatly
complicate matters: he will not hear of the family being separated
or leaving Russian territory.

One day the Czarina said to me in this connection: “I wouldn’t
leave Russia on any consideration, for it seems to me that to go
abroad would be to break our last link with the past, which would
then be dead for ever.”

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_Monday, March 18th._--During the first week of Lent the family
will perform its devotions as usual. There is a service morning and
evening. As their different occupations prevent the attendance of
the choir, the Czarina and Grand-Duchesses sing with the deacon.

_Tuesday, March 19th._--After lunch the Treaty of Brest-Litovsk was
discussed. It has just been signed. The Czar was very depressed,
saying: “It is such a disgrace for Russia and amounts to suicide. I
should never have thought the Emperor William and the German
Government could stoop to shake hands with these miserable
traitors. But I’m sure they will get no good from it; it won’t save
them from ruin!”

A little later, when Prince Dolgorouky remarked that the newspapers
were discussing a clause in which the Germans demanded that the
Imperial family should be handed over to them unharmed, the Czar
cried: “This is either a manœuvre to discredit me or an insult.”

The Czarina added in a low voice: “After what they have done to the
Czar, I would rather die in Russia than be saved by the Germans!”

_Friday, March 22nd._--At a quarter past nine, after the evening
service, everyone went to Confession--children, servants, suite,
and finally Their Majesties.

_Saturday, March 23rd._--A detachment of over a hundred Red Guards
has arrived from Omsk; they are the first Maximalist soldiers to
take up garrison duty at Tobolsk. Our last chance of escape has
been snatched from us. His Majesty, however, tells me he has
reason to believe that there are among these men many officers who
have enlisted in the ranks; he also asserts, without telling me
definitely the source of his information, that there are three
hundred officers at Tioumen.

_Tuesday, April 9th._--The Bolshevik commissary, who has come with
the detachment from Omsk, has insisted on being allowed to inspect
the house. The soldiers of our guard have refused permission.
Colonel Kobylinsky is very uneasy and fears a conflict.
Precautionary measures; patrols, sentries doubled. A very disturbed
night.

_Wednesday, April 10th._--A “full sitting” of our guard, at which
the Bolshevik commissary reveals the extent of his powers. He has
the right to have anyone opposing his orders shot within
twenty-four hours and without trial. The soldiers let him enter the
house.

_Friday, April 12th._--Alexis Nicolaïevitch confined to bed, as
since yesterday he has had a violent pain in the groin caused by a
strain. He has been so well this winter. It is to be hoped it is
nothing serious.

A soldier of our detachment who had been sent to Moscow has
returned to-day and brought Colonel Kobylinsky a memorandum from
the Central Executive Committee of the Bolshevik Government,
ordering him to be much stricter with us. General Tatichtchef,
Prince Dolgorouky, and Countess Hendrikof are to be transferred to
our house and treated as prisoners. The arrival is also announced
of a commissary with extraordinary powers, accompanied by a
detachment of soldiers.

_Saturday, April 13th._--All who have been living in Kornilof’s
house, Countess Hendrikof, Mlle. Schneider, General Tatichtchef,
Prince Dolgorouky, and Mr. Gibbes[65] move to our house. Only
Doctors Botkin and Derevenko are left at liberty. Alexis
Nicolaïevitch’s pains have increased since yesterday.

_Monday, April 15th._--Alexis Nicolaïevitch in great pain yesterday
and to-day. It is one of his severe attacks of hæmophilia.

_Tuesday, April 16th._--Colonel Kobylinsky, officer of the guard,
and some soldiers have been to search the house. They have taken
away the Czar’s dagger which he wore with his Cossack uniform.

_Monday, April 22nd._--The commissary from Moscow arrived to-day
with a small detachment; his name is Yakovlef. He has shown his
papers to the commandant and soldiers’ committee. In the evening he
took tea with Their Majesties. Every one is restless and
distraught. The commissary’s arrival is felt to be an evil portent,
vague but real.

_Tuesday, April 23rd._--Commissary Yakovlef came at eleven o’clock.
After an inspection of the whole house he went to see the Czar, who
accompanied him to the room of Alexis Nicolaïevitch who is in bed.
Not having been able to see the Czarina, who was not ready to
receive him, he came again a little later with the regimental
doctor and paid a second visit to Alexis Nicolaïevitch. (He wanted
to be assured by his doctor that the boy was really ill.) As he was
going away he asked the commandant whether we had much luggage.
Can this mean we are to move?

_Wednesday, April 24th._--We are all in a state of mental anguish.
We feel we are forgotten by everyone, abandoned to our own
resources and at the mercy of this man. Is it possible that no one
will raise a finger to save the Imperial family? Where are those
who have remained loyal to the Czar? Why do they delay?

_Thursday, April 25th._--Shortly before three o’clock, as I was
going along the passage, I met two servants sobbing. They told me
that Yakovlef has come to tell the Czar that he is taking him away.
What can be happening? I dare not go up without being summoned, and
went back to my room. Almost immediately Tatiana Nicolaïevna
knocked at my door. She was in tears, and told me Her Majesty was
asking for me. I followed her. The Czarina was alone, greatly
upset. She confirmed what I had heard, that Yakovlef has been sent
from Moscow to take the Czar away and is to leave to-night.

“The commissary says that no harm will come to the Czar, and that
if anyone wishes to accompany him there will be no objection. I
can’t let the Czar go alone. They want to separate him from his
family as they did before....[66]

“They’re going to try to force his hand by making him anxious about
his family.... The Czar is necessary to them; they feel that he
alone represents Russia.... Together we shall be in a better
position to resist them, and I ought to be at his side in the time

The four Grand-Duchesses. The Czarevitch. The officer of the Guard. The Czar.]

PICTURES OF THE CHILDREN ON THE WALL.

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of trial.... But the boy is still so ill.... Suppose some
complication sets in.... Oh, God, what ghastly torture!... For the
first time in my life I don’t know what I ought to do; I’ve always
felt inspired whenever I’ve had to take a decision, and now I can’t
think.... But God won’t allow the Czar’s departure; it can’t, it
_must_ not be. I’m sure the thaw will begin to-night....”[67]

Tatiana Nicolaïevna here intervened:

“But mother, if father has to go, whatever we say, something must
be decided....”

I took up the cudgels on Tatiana Nicolaïevna’s behalf, remarking
that Alexis Nicolaïevitch was better, and that we should take great
care of him....

Her Majesty was obviously tortured by indecision; she paced up and
down the room, and went on talking, rather to herself than to us.
At last she came up to me and said:

“Yes, that will be best; I’ll go with the Czar; I shall trust
Alexis to you....”

A moment later the Czar came in. The Czarina walked towards him,
saying:

“It’s settled; I’ll go with you, and Marie will come too.”

The Czar replied: “Very well, if you wish it.”

I came down to my room, and the whole day has been spent in getting
ready. Prince Dolgorouky and Doctor Botkin will accompany Their
Majesties, as also will Tchemadourof (the Czar’s valet), Anna
Demidova (the Czarina’s maid), and Sednief (footman to the
Grand-Duchesses). It has been decided that eight officers and men
of our guard are to go with them.

The family have spent the whole afternoon at the bedside of Alexis
Nicolaïevitch.

This evening at half-past ten we went up to take tea. The Czarina
was seated on the divan with two of her daughters beside her. Their
faces were swollen with crying. We all did our best to hide our
grief and to maintain outward calm. We felt that for one to give
way would cause all to break down. The Czar and Czarina were calm
and collected. It is apparent that they are prepared for any
sacrifices, even of their lives, if God in his inscrutable wisdom
should require it for the country’s welfare. They have never shown
greater kindness or solicitude.

This splendid serenity of theirs, this wonderful faith, proved
infectious.

At half-past eleven the servants were assembled in the large hall.
Their Majesties and Marie Nicolaïevna took leave of them. The Czar
embraced every man, the Czarina every woman. Almost all were in
tears. Their Majesties withdrew; we all went down to my room.

At half-past three the conveyances drew up in the courtyard. They
were the horrible _tarantass_.[68] Only one was covered. We found a
little straw in the backyard and spread it on the floor of the
carriages. We put a mattress in the one to be used by the Czarina.

At four o’clock we went up to see Their Majesties and found them
just leaving Alexis Nicolaïevitch’s room. The Czar and Czarina and
Marie Nicolaïevna took leave of us. The Czarina and the
Grand-Duchesses were in tears. The Czar seemed calm and had a word
of encouragement for each of us; he embraced us. The Czarina, when
saying good-bye, begged me to stay upstairs with Alexis
Nicolaïevitch. I went to the boy’s room and found him in bed,
crying.

A few minutes later we heard the rumbling of wheels. The
Grand-Duchesses passed their brother’s door on their way to their
rooms, and I could hear them sobbing....

_Saturday, April 27th._--The man who drove the Czarina for the
first stage has brought a note from Marie Nicolaïevna; the roads
are founderous, travelling conditions terrible. How will the
Czarina be able to stand the journey? How heartrending it all is!

_Sunday, April 28th._--Colonel Kobylinsky has received a telegram
saying that the whole party arrived safely at Tioumen at half-past
nine on Saturday evening.

The “field chapel” has been moved to the large hall, where the
priest will be able to celebrate Mass, as there is a consecrated
altar.

In the evening a second telegram arrived, sent after leaving
Tioumen: “Travelling in comfort. How is the boy? God be with you.”

_Monday, April 29th._--The children have received a letter from the
Czarina from Tioumen. The journey has been very trying. Horses up
to their chests in water crossing the rivers. Wheels broken several
times.

_Wednesday, May 1st._--Alexis Nicolaïevitch is up. Nagorny carried
him to his wheeled chair; he was wheeled about in the sun.

_Thursday, May 2nd._--Still no news since they left Tioumen. Where
are they? They could have reached Moscow by Tuesday!

_Friday, May 3rd._--Colonel Kobylinsky has received a telegram
saying that the travellers have been detained at Ekaterinburg. What
has happened?

_Saturday, May 4th._--A sad Easter eve. We are in low spirits.

_Sunday, May 5th._--Easter Day. Still no news.

_Tuesday, May 7th._--At last the children have had a letter from
Ekaterinburg saying that all are well but not explaining why they
are held up. What agony can be read between the lines!

_Wednesday, May 8th._--The officers and men of our guard who
accompanied Their Majesties have returned from Ekaterinburg. They
say that on arrival at Ekaterinburg the Czar’s train was surrounded
by Red Guards and that the Czar, Czarina, and Marie Nicolaïevna
have been incarcerated in Ipatief’s house.[69] Prince Dolgorouky is
in prison, and they themselves were only released after two days’
detention.

_Saturday, May 11th._--Colonel Kobylinsky has been removed and we
are left to the Tobolsk Soviet.

_Friday, May 17th._--The soldiers of our guard have been replaced
by Red Guards brought from Ekaterinburg by Commissary Rodionof, who
has come to fetch us. General Tatichtchef and I both feel we ought
to

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delay our departure as long as possible; but the Grand-Duchesses
are so eager to see their parents again that we don’t feel morally
justified in opposing their wishes.

_Saturday, May 18th._--Vespers. The priest and nuns have been
stripped and searched by order of the commissary.

_Sunday, May 19th_ (May 6th, O.S.).--The Czar’s birthday.... Our
departure is fixed for to-morrow. The commissary refuses to allow
the priest to come; he has forbidden the Grand-Duchesses to lock
their doors at night.

_Monday, May 20th._--At half-past eleven we left the house and went
on board the _Rouss_. She is the boat which brought us here with
the Czar and Czarina eight months ago. Baroness Buxhœveden has been
granted permission to rejoin us. We left Tobolsk at five o’clock.
Commissary Rodionof has shut Alexis Nicolaïevitch in his cabin with
Nagorny. We protested: the child is ill and the doctor ought to
have access to him at any time.

_Wednesday, May 22nd._--We reached Tioumen this morning.